So...I thought that the drama was over. I was so wrong!
Today I finally said good bye to my cowboy and put a woken dream back to sleep. That was ok. We both said goodbye and agreed that it was for the better. I can't end up gettin hurt, and I don't want to be hurt by him. He's a good kid. That was okay.
Then....one of my ex's calls. We've kinda been talking the past couple weeks. He wants to talk. So I let him talk. He needs closure. I once loved him. I still do. But I can't be with him. Those feelings are put away because what we had was in the past. It's gone. I care about him yes...But we are two different people. They say let sleeping dogs lie for a reason. So after being on the phone with him for like an hour, I'm tired from yelling.
I still have to go to work. Work was fun. Work was a relief. it got my mind of todays events. Plus I don't feel well. I haven't been feeling well. So if we get into an argument I am autimatically going to dismiss you for now because I don't feel good...Leave me alone and let me feel better and then we can talk lol. I can't waste my energy fighting because that is what happens when you don't feel well....I don't mean too much harm...lol.
I got into an argument with a friend about sex. He's the ex of my ex manager. He's sweet. But he is a typical guy. He wants some. Well we got in to it about that and he finally admitted that yeah he would love to have sex with me, but if he had to chose he would rather just have me as a person in his life to be able to get to know than have nothing at all. He said that he doesn't need me for that, and he doesn't have to get that from me if I'm not to that point with him. Okay so that argument turned out to be ok. He has been calling me everyday to see how I am. He also calls me everynight to say goodbye. He's been trying to get me come see him but he lives 25 minutes away and right now I don't have the money for gas for little road trips for fun. Anyways, I hope to be able to see him soon.
Then that leads me to the last and hopefully final dramatic event of the night which I am not going to go into because he reads these apparently and I'm not saying anything about it so I don't get words put in my mouth or so that words that I say can not be taken the wrong way.
Oh well.. I shouldbe in bed. I feel like crap. I think that I am getting an ear infection. I know that I got this from my manager. She's sick and she was my training manager so I know it's her fault......
