When I was a little girl, I had dreams of living on a farm. I loved horses and I wanted them when I was little. I told myself that when I grew up I was going to own them and ride them and have a farm and animals all be a cowgirl. Well some where along the line, I grew up and forgot that. About a month and half ago I met some one actually on here. He's a cowboy. He's sweet, good looking and downright special. He makes me laugh. He makes me smile. I'm not affraid to be myself to him. I feel like I could pour my heart and soul out to him and he would nuture it and take care of it with great respect. He's everything that I have ever wanted in a guy. He's one of a kind. I love his voice. I love his smile. He's not shy to call me sweetie and he says sorry if he feels that he offended me. He likes to do the things that I have always wanted to either learn to do or do again. We want the same things outta life and out of some one. The problem is I'm falling for him. I've never met him. I've seen him and I've heard him. We've talked for many hours getting to know each other. Yes there is still much to learn about each other. I'm not in love with him. I'm just really startin to fall for him And talking to him brings out the country side of me. And that is who I am. I am country. I hate Ohio. I wanna have a huge farm and raise animals and work hard. I wanna get up early and go feed the piggies. That's what I want. I love the sound of that. I want a huge farm. I wanna be able to go out and ride my horse whenever I feel like it. I wanna just ride and forget about things for awhile. Just feel the wind in my face and clear my head. I had forgotten about my dreams. The past few years everyone asks me what I want and I could never honestly answer them. I could never pick a topic for school and be comfortable going to school and getting a degree in it and I still don't. Then I met my cowboy and all of a sudden my dreams came very clear to me. Thats what I want. I know it sounds crazy. But I've always wanted a cowboy to take care of. He works hard and I wanna take care of him. Now the other problem that I face is, he's in Oklahoma. Like I said he's a cowboy. He really is. He's about 12 hours away. And he has already said that he doesn't think he could date some one who lives this far away. I don't think I could either. We did discuss meeting. We could meet half way. That way it would be cheaper and less time traveling and more time together. He thought it was a good idea. Now I just need money. I need money for more than just that. I need money for my bills. I have to look at getting a second job. My job now is only seasonal. But I still need a job that I can start at now, and then hopefully pick up more hours after the season is over and I am doen with my current job. Wow. Okay so thats the stuff that was on my mind that I noted in my other blog. Well the dog is finally quiet and I'm awide awake now.....
