What it be?

Couldn't really think of a good title for this one. I really haven't been blogging at all lately. I haven't really felt the need or the desire too. There are a few things that are going on right now and I'm a little uneasy about some of them. Most I have no control over. It's ok. Life goes on. Things happen in life that sometimes we don't understand. It's not a bad thing it's just well a thing. It more has to do with my and my feelings than anything physical. But it's something that I must do. For health and money of course. Over all life is good. I can't really complain. Most of the drama is gone. In a way though it is still around. Trying to create new drama I think. But that is ok, I'll find a way to work through it and deal with it. I have made it this far. I can't give in to the temptations of wanting to act like a little brat and kick the dramas face in.... ugh.

Okay I just lost the blogging flow I was in... I should really write but I don't feel like it... I'll be back later though I'm sure.

Lost track of time

Wow, I lost track of time majorly. It's been a few days since I have updated.

Last weekend... April went and spend the night with her grandma. Jason and I went to a little get together at Chris's house. I ended up drinking way too much and we both crashed there.

Spend most of last weekend working on getting the car moved. The corvette I should say. We ended up doing it the day before dead line. As soon as we had verbal permission we were on the roll.

Worked at work, and horse farm a couple days. Jason mostly works the horse farm because I have to watch April but on mornings where I can leave her with his mom I try to get out there.

Not a whole lot of other stuff going on. I'm sure there is, but I can't remember at the moment.

Go Go Go

Well...now that the weather is getting warmer when I'm at work I need to drink water big time. So I'm trying my hardest to keep my water bottle with me and my goal is to fill it up at least three times. That's the recommended amount of water right there. Of course the more water I drink the more I have to go obviously. I've filled it up twice now, and I have already gone several times.... but it's ok. It's worth it. I feel like a good flush is in order... I go a few days drinking as much water as I can with no pop at all and I feel really good usually. I worked out a little this morning. Reverse crunches are awesome on my legs and my lower tummy. I feel like I ran a mile after doing a really good set of those... I also got my weight lifting in. I'm really feeling it in my arms now. It feels great...

Goodness

Today was a pretty good day. I let Jason sleep as long as he wanted today. I was off so I kept April and let him catch up on sleep. After he got up we headed over to see Chris. We got back home a little after 9, because Jason had to work. I helped Chris clean out the pond because April had a fight with the rocks around the pond and of course all the rocks ended up in the pond lol. I cleaned out all the rocks. I helped him get some leaves and gunk out. It looks better now. I even saved a frogs life from being cut short from the dog lol. Then Chris helped Jason work on the trailer. It looks awesome thanks to both of them. It's really come a long way. Jason wants to buy another atv next year so we both have one to ride. He wants a sport for him, because it's a manual and I won't ride one. I have no real strong desire to learn how to drive manual. Plus it's a sport and it's handling is a lot different than the grizzly. I'm ok with that.

Tomorrow is Easter. I'm excited. I have a cute dress for April. We're going to try and get some pictures done if my sister reminds me this time so we don't forget lol. I'm excited. I'm also hoping that some of my friends get some answers to their prayers tomorrow. They are religious and will most likely be in church tomorrow praying and asking for guidance with their family problems and I pray they get it. They don't deserve what is happening. No mother should ever do what theirs is doing right now. I've seen mothers from other families do things, but nothing like this. There comes a point where enough is enough and she has crossed this line. There is no need to purposely upset and hurt your children. If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything is how I feel these days. Let your past stay in the past ya know? These things that she said were things that had to do with them being born and years ago... there is no point in bringing it up especially when they are lies. Anyways... I hope they find some answers with what to do. I know one wants her to just disappear and I can't blame her. What was said was very cold hearted and cruel. But I know the girls are strong and can stick together...

Let's see.. my other drama issue hasn't really gone anywhere. I made it known that we needed to talk and of course because I made first contact it was the highlight... then of course it went back into the problem that I have with everything being about them.... they just don't seem to get the hint. I am seriously losing hope, and only really doing this because it affects some one else who I care about. If it weren't for the fact that I care about them I wouldn't bother because it's not just my problem.. There are other friends involved but yet I'm the bad person for taking the stand against the problems... right... I just hope that gets the help that she needs. Her kids deserve more.

I think that's it... it's taken like two hours to write this lol. Cheaters is such a stupid show but yet I'm still watching it. Oh well, it's time for a shower and to get stuff ready for tomorrow.

I feel good

I feel really good. Just woke up, about half hour ago. I feel good. I did some weights last night and some crunches, and I feel good. I gotta work on my toes... I got a pair of cute flip flops yesterday and I realized my toes look a little rusty from my pedi.. so I need to redo them. I haven't decided what color though. I need to get my camera ready and my batteries charged for tomorrow. We're gonna do some pictures. I need to get some new pictures, I haven't really been taking many. I haven't decided what I'm going to put April in yet. I have several really cute sun dresses but nothing fancy. We're not going any where out nice, just family and my grandma's house. I hate those fancy foo foo dresses... those are so not for April. Besides April would get it dirty in no time.

I so want to go walking today but it's going to rain and plus April is still asleep. It's after 9 and she is still in bed lol. She's been outside almost everyday this weeks and there were a few late nights so she's probably catching up, and she rarely takes naps.

well I need to hop off here and start some house cleaning before she wakes up....

Oh yeah

Well I just did a check in. It's been a few months since I have measured everything. My total loss in inches for my body is over 30... That includes both arms and both legs. 33.5 inches total. Of course I think it's higher because I didn't start measuring until after I started losing. So I don't know my true loss in inches. I can't get over how much has changes in some areas. My waist alone I've lost 6.5 inches. I've lost 5 inches off both my legs and 6.5 off my hips. Amazing. When I look at these numbers the numbers on the scale kinda loose meaning to me. I'm more satisfied with these numbers. These numbers are what make the jeans fit better.

I have way more energy than I did last summer. It's been almost a year since I officially started this. Well in May it will be. I just wish that I knew what my numbers were when I started doing this in May. I need to sit down and do my weights. I haven't done them for a few days. Jason did his today and it reminded me.

He's looking pretty good also. His tummy back to being flat.. his over the road tummy is gone. He's lifting again to get back what he's lost in his arms. I'm proud of him.

I rarely ever get my acid reflux anymore. Since I've cut a bunch of food out that I know will cause it, and the other problems which actually my sister deals with I maybe get an episode once a month now. Another (strange) thing is that my eyes are getting better. But I'm not complaining.

I lost 3 inches off my waist alone this month. I've been doing crunches a lot more this month. That's usually what happens when I really keep up on them, I loose a nice amount right away and then I slow down... which reminds me I need to do those tonight too...

I better get off here and get to it. I'm off this weekend so I have to get my work out in for my calories. We were going to go to the park tomorrow and we might still but it all depends on the rain. I have a mile down under 17 minutes. That's with pushing a stroller. Not bad...

Good smells

My kitchen smells super yummy right now. I got out the crock pot today and in the process of making a pot roast. It's been going for a few hours, and already it smells so good. I just got done adding the veggies. It should be nice and done and ready to eat when I get home from work. I haven't made any thing in the crock pot for awhile. I thought it was time.

I got my new water bottle the other day. I used have a bunch when I worked at petsmart but they have disappeared. So I got a new one. It's nice because it's unbreakable. It's pink too so it's cute. It's one of the nalgene bottles. I love them. They are great to keep ice in so that your water stays colder longer. I can also clip it on stuff too. I love them. I drink so much water when I carry one with me. It's great to keep at work. It's a great way for me to start cutting out my pop for this summer. I try not to drink a whole lot when it's hot. I hate how it makes me feel.

Softball starts in like two weeks. So exciting. It's going to be fun to watch them play. I told Jeff I would try and come even if Jason can't go to all the games. Least April and I can go and have fun and get out. I like wearing her out before bed lol. She slept good last night. Of course so did I. I think I fell asleep before the late show came on. I was beat. It sucked though because Jason got called into work at the last second. So... he only got one day off instead of two. I'm off this weekend. Sunday we're going to my grandma's for Easter and then my sister's birthday.

Well time to get ready for work..

Crispy

I am so freaking burnt. We were outside most of today at Chris's working on the fence for his yard. I later went to work and I got more sun... I was even wearing my sunscreen like I did all last summer.... It hurts. We were at his house last night until 4am. We finally got in the hot tub. It felt so freaking good. We just hung out and relaxed. April fell asleep in the stroller and we had a nice fire too. It felt so good to just sit and relax... Jason and Chris drank a little, I was the dd to get home lol. It's ok, I really wasn't in the mood to drink anyways, I rarely ever drink anymore. We got home after 4 this morning. April slept the whole time... she did awesome. She behaves pretty well, and listens to Chris too when he tells her what she can't touch in the garage.

We went to park the day before so I could get my extra walk in. April played for awhile on the swings and the slides. She loves the slides.

We got some awesome news today from Jason's mom... we are so happy for her. I can't wait to see it. She's been in this house too long, it's falling apart I swear.

I'm so tired I don't think I'm gonna make it to midnight lol.