That time has come. I know we all come up with resolutions every year and most of us never keep most of them. I admit, I'm one of them. This year I'm going about it a little differently. I'm not making resolutions on giving up stuff, or quitting bad habits. Those are usually the ones we give up anyways. This year I'm going to make an effort to continue doing things that better me. For example, my weight loss. I started working on it this past summer and I've come a long way. So, I'm making a resolution to continue doing what I am doing and to continue to get in shape and better my body.
My attitude towards things. For a while somewhere I started looking for the negative in things. Rather it be a choice, either buying something or trying something new out of the ordinary I start picking things apart... Looking for why it can't be done. I've realized this and I'm starting to change it, so into the new year I will continue to do this. Of course there a few other things but I really can't go into them yet because we're not there yet.
Next year is going to be a good year I hope. There are some changes that will be taking place for the good. New chapters will be opening up. Next summer, we're going to have fun. Hoping to be out on the farm more. Already talked to Erica, and it's kinda a done deal come April when Jason's work will start for her. This past summer we didn't go out a whole lot and it sucked. But this year we're hoping to get out more. Hoping to do more things with Jeff and his crew and of course other friends.
I'm hoping to really turn some things around this new year. We've been through a lot this past year friend wise and family wise and it's time for a year of goodness and happiness and just plain awesomeness. I've met some pretty cool people over the past year, and I love them to death. I've made some friendships closer, and I've made new friendships. We have fun and we laugh.
I got a great job, that I love to death. Jason got a job that he enjoys and he's home with us daily now. So, I want to concentrate on making next year awesome. I want to continue to improve things, and start to explore some new things. I've learned some things about myself this past year that I didn't know. I look forward to exploring new things.
I'm hoping to make this a great year of many to come with April. This past year has been kinda rough on her, but not to a huge extend. She doesn't know what goes on, but in a way it does effect her. We've had our rough moments. It seems like out of no where she's running down the hallway, and telling us when she's ready for night night as she calls it, to sitting on her potty to sleeping in her big girl bed. Come next few months she'll be getting a new toddler bed to match her new dresser. I love the natural color and it is easier to coordinate colors with I think. Anyways, she goes to her chair when she's hungry and tells us when she wants up. She gives hugs and kisses every day. I remember like it was yesterday putting her in her baby swing... or watching her try to crawl for the first time. It's been a very eventful past year and then some.
I also learned about forgiveness this past year in a way I thought I never would. Things happen. We don't know why some people do what they do, some things we can't comprehend. I don't mean your normal everyday stuff. I mean things that really make you step back and go whoa. There is a line when it comes to personal boundaries. Years ago someone crossed that with me. Big time. I never forgave, and I never forgot. Until the day he approached me and asked for forgiveness. He didn't beg. He didn't try and pass some crazy story off on why. He simply asked for my forgiveness. It made me think big time. I realized that I couldn't carry the chip on my shoulder any more. Now, before he asked for forgiveness we actually managed to create a small friendship. Talk here and there. Nothing big. Went awhile with no conversation and one day out of the blue he asks. I'll never forget him. The second that I told him I would forgive him I felt relief. I felt lighter, and I felt happy. I told him that I had waited so long for those words... but he couldn't tell me until he was ready and that is something that I understand completely.
That has truly taught me, that in my eyes you can forgive. You can't force yourself to forgive. You have to do it I think, when your good and ready and only oneself can know when that is. What he did, took courage. Of course he never should have done what he did in the first place.... but to come so far from where he was is unbelievable. We only have one life and I think we should live it to the fullest. I know that there are some people who can't forgive and that's okay too. No one says we have too... as long we're happy and living our lives with those who matter that is what matters right?
I have completely gotten off topic. This is what happens when I sit and think lol. I'm just in a good bloggy mood I guess. Today was a good day for the most part... something else I really don't want to go in to but was a huge relief.
