Phew

Well I tell ya, what ever is going around sucks. I called off work yesterday because I couldn't keep anything down. Jason got sick the night after Christmas and was sick for about 24 hours. I thought that I was going to get lucky and not get anything because we originally thought that it was food poisoning. Well I was wrong. I spent yesterday mostly all day in bed. No appetite at all. I still have no appetite.. I'm only making myself eat because I haven't really eaten since Monday night. I tried to eat a little last night not much, but it managed to stay down. My body is so sore right now. My ribs and my back. I'm going to try to go to work today though. It was nice though being able to stay in bed and just rest. I got real bored super quick though. Jason was on daddy duty all day yesterday. Made me feel really good knowing that I could just rest and he would take care of her. I tried not to have to much contact with her because it would be nice if she manages not to get this. Well, that's enough for now. I got stuff to do.

Girls Vacation

I'm getting more and more excited. I think we might be heading down south a little instead of our original destination. I am actually hoping that we do. It'll be fun. Just us girls. Getting away from the world for a bit. A weekend of girl talk, and walking the town. There are so many places to go and browse... I can't wait. I look forward to the car ride, turning the radio up...singing... laughing. Just being free for a while. We can't run away for ever, but long enough to get refreshed and our heads cleared is just enough. It's going to be nice. I can't wait. I've never taken a vacation before with a friend like this so it's going to be an adventure. The only thing that really sucks is that this weekend is in the end of the pay period so I get paid the day we come back. So I'm going to have to save a little the next couple weeks. Oh I can't wait. This is a treat to ourselves in a way. Amber had this planned and once she found out I had the weekend off, she freaked out and told me to come with her so we're going.

Other than that....I finally bought a new wallet. I've only been trying to buy one for a few months now... I finally broke down and got one. It's pink and pretty nice. Of course I got it from Wally World, and I paid less than 10. It's actually really nice. I really like it. Other than that....nothing new....

WL Progress and stuff

Well, I measured yesterday. I've lost a total of 4 inches from the last time that I measured which was about two months ago. Over all I've lost 12 inches in a little under 6 months. I've dropped down to a size 9 in Juniors officially since I bought my first new pair the other day with a gift card that I got for Christmas. They are a tad bit too big but they haven't been washed yet or dried yet...I love them.

Come Jan 15 I'm going a mini vacation with Amber. We're going away for the weekend. No babies, no guys, no body but us. We're using this time to get away and clear our heads and have some girl time. Go out to eat, have some drinks.... relax. There is this cute little town with a ton of gift shops and stuff... so it'll be nice to just get away. I can't wait. April will go stay with my mom and this way Jason can have some time to himself to go do whatever and hang with his friends and stuff. I think this is a good thing. We need our own time here and there. I can't wait.

Great Christmas

The past few days have been crazy. Christmas Eve we did presents with grandma Pam. April got some super cool stuff from her. She's loves the cool little talking tea set she got from her. So cute. We headed over to Jeff's later. Christmas over there was crazy with 5 kids... April loved it. She got some pretty cool stuff from Jeff and Amber and Jenny. Jeff and Amber got Jason and me a date night package I guess you could call it. Gift card to O'Charley's and then a gift card to the Rave movie theater. And, they are even watching April when we want to go. Super cool.

Christmas day we headed to my family's gathering. April did pretty good there too. She got a Dora quad that she learned how to operate in less than thirty minutes all by herself literally. She was having a blast. She got a bunch of other toys and clothes. I got a ton of bath stuff this year. Some candles, gift cards, some clothes, and other stuff.

Over all we had fun this year. My whole family was together. We even took Jeff up with us lol. It was a full house. April is staying with my mom this weekend. Kinda glad she took her, because we needed the back seat for everything since the trunk was full lol. We had lots of super good food.

This year we did really good with sales. We've been updating a lot of stuff and we've done good. That's all I can say. Of course one Christmas present we haven't received yet, which we will in a few months here and it's going to really help out. That's all I can say there.

Today we went to the mall and Jason used a gift card that he got. Now it's relaxing time since April isn't here. Then it's time to start cleaning once Jason gets up. This coming month is going to be crazy for me. I have a few days off and that's it. I work every single week day except one. With Tina being out everyone is working more and harder to make sure things get done right. Hopefully she'll be back soon. I feel so sorry for her and her family right now. It's tough hearing news like this especially through the holidays.

I think that is it for now. Love Christmas but, I'm glad that it is over. I want things to get back to normal.

2010

That time has come. I know we all come up with resolutions every year and most of us never keep most of them. I admit, I'm one of them. This year I'm going about it a little differently. I'm not making resolutions on giving up stuff, or quitting bad habits. Those are usually the ones we give up anyways. This year I'm going to make an effort to continue doing things that better me. For example, my weight loss. I started working on it this past summer and I've come a long way. So, I'm making a resolution to continue doing what I am doing and to continue to get in shape and better my body.

My attitude towards things. For a while somewhere I started looking for the negative in things. Rather it be a choice, either buying something or trying something new out of the ordinary I start picking things apart... Looking for why it can't be done. I've realized this and I'm starting to change it, so into the new year I will continue to do this. Of course there a few other things but I really can't go into them yet because we're not there yet.

Next year is going to be a good year I hope. There are some changes that will be taking place for the good. New chapters will be opening up. Next summer, we're going to have fun. Hoping to be out on the farm more. Already talked to Erica, and it's kinda a done deal come April when Jason's work will start for her. This past summer we didn't go out a whole lot and it sucked. But this year we're hoping to get out more. Hoping to do more things with Jeff and his crew and of course other friends.

I'm hoping to really turn some things around this new year. We've been through a lot this past year friend wise and family wise and it's time for a year of goodness and happiness and just plain awesomeness. I've met some pretty cool people over the past year, and I love them to death. I've made some friendships closer, and I've made new friendships. We have fun and we laugh.

I got a great job, that I love to death. Jason got a job that he enjoys and he's home with us daily now. So, I want to concentrate on making next year awesome. I want to continue to improve things, and start to explore some new things. I've learned some things about myself this past year that I didn't know. I look forward to exploring new things.

I'm hoping to make this a great year of many to come with April. This past year has been kinda rough on her, but not to a huge extend. She doesn't know what goes on, but in a way it does effect her. We've had our rough moments. It seems like out of no where she's running down the hallway, and telling us when she's ready for night night as she calls it, to sitting on her potty to sleeping in her big girl bed. Come next few months she'll be getting a new toddler bed to match her new dresser. I love the natural color and it is easier to coordinate colors with I think. Anyways, she goes to her chair when she's hungry and tells us when she wants up. She gives hugs and kisses every day. I remember like it was yesterday putting her in her baby swing... or watching her try to crawl for the first time. It's been a very eventful past year and then some.

I also learned about forgiveness this past year in a way I thought I never would. Things happen. We don't know why some people do what they do, some things we can't comprehend. I don't mean your normal everyday stuff. I mean things that really make you step back and go whoa. There is a line when it comes to personal boundaries. Years ago someone crossed that with me. Big time. I never forgave, and I never forgot. Until the day he approached me and asked for forgiveness. He didn't beg. He didn't try and pass some crazy story off on why. He simply asked for my forgiveness. It made me think big time. I realized that I couldn't carry the chip on my shoulder any more. Now, before he asked for forgiveness we actually managed to create a small friendship. Talk here and there. Nothing big. Went awhile with no conversation and one day out of the blue he asks. I'll never forget him. The second that I told him I would forgive him I felt relief. I felt lighter, and I felt happy. I told him that I had waited so long for those words... but he couldn't tell me until he was ready and that is something that I understand completely.

That has truly taught me, that in my eyes you can forgive. You can't force yourself to forgive. You have to do it I think, when your good and ready and only oneself can know when that is. What he did, took courage. Of course he never should have done what he did in the first place.... but to come so far from where he was is unbelievable. We only have one life and I think we should live it to the fullest. I know that there are some people who can't forgive and that's okay too. No one says we have too... as long we're happy and living our lives with those who matter that is what matters right?

I have completely gotten off topic. This is what happens when I sit and think lol. I'm just in a good bloggy mood I guess. Today was a good day for the most part... something else I really don't want to go in to but was a huge relief.

Almost here

Well we're almost done with Christmas shopping. Just a few more gits and we're done. We knocked out a bunch today. Got April her gift from Santa today and I can't wait. She is going to have so much fun on it. We went ahead and took the battery out so that when time comes it'll be ready to go and nicely charged. Speaking of charged, I need to get my batteries charged for my camera. I need them Christmas eve for pictures of April opening gifts with grandma Pam and then later that night for pictures of the all the kids. That is going to be interesting... 5 kids.... oh my. Can't wait... I still have to get Amber's gift finished, and then get something for Curtis and that crew is finished. We got Madi's today. Jeff's crew has been finished for awhile.

Jason gave me my gift a little early this year. They're so beautiful And they're my favorite color. I love them. Completely caught me off guard too. I wasn't expecting them at all.

Ugh well, I need to get off here and finish getting some things done. Laundry day it is...

Sit and spin....

April finally figured out how to go all the way around on her sit and spin. She's picking up some speed too... she even tried to do it standing up. She's so funny. She seems to feel a little better today. She actually ate a good breakfast today. I gave her pudding last night and let her feed herself.... yeah that was a mess. She loved it. She went straight into the bath tub after that...

She put her snow boots on today all by herself. She loves putting shoes on... first it our shoes. Now she's trying to put hers on. She got her boots on by herself and they were actually on her correct feet. I'm very proud of my little girl.

Getting closer

Well, I dug into the wrapping paper today. I have way too much wrapping paper. I got what we have wrapped finally. Never again will I get wrapping paper that has glitter on it. I'm not quite sure what I was thinking. Then to top it off, we got gift tags with glitter on them too. Ugh. Oh well, it was easy to clean up believe it or not. I still have a few more gifts to get. I'll be heading out sometime in the next few days before I head to work to pick up the last few gifts...

Honestly I really don't care about gifts that much this year. I'm not sure why, but I really don't care what I get. I just want to see April open hers. That's all I really care about is her and this being her first Christmas where she can be more active and have lots more fun opening gifts. Last Christmas all she could really do was sit up and that was about it.. This Christmas she's running.

I just want to be with my family this Christmas. We've been through a lot this past year and there were some times where I didn't think we were going to make it, or we might be planning a funeral... but luckily that didn't happen and things are good now for the most part. My family is pretty strong willed and no matter what happens between us we still all come together and celebrate things and pretty much get along. I've learned a lot from my family, mostly about forgiveness and trust. We've all said words to each other that I know we wish we could take back but can't. We still have a bond that will hopefully stay strong. I love my family. Now with April, these family gatherings mean even more to me. It's something that I want her to grow up with and look forward too. I grew up with them, and I look forward to seeing my family every holiday. I want the same for her too.

I love my boyfriend

I love my boyfriend. Today while I was at work my boots finally went out on me. I've worn them down to like nothing. So, my feet were soaked and freezing with in 20 minutes of being at work. He actually brought me new socks, and a pair of dry shoes. Tonight he took me to Walmart and bought me a new pair of water proof boats. They were sale which made it even better since it was a last minute thing. They fit good. I look forward to wearing them on Monday when I go back to work.

He takes care of me that is for sure. I love him to death.

Our weigh in on Friday was pretty good. Two more pounds down. I hope the new ab work out helps the target areas. I feel more of a burn all around unlike the other one I did. This one targets every muscle in the target area. Ones I forgot I had....

April is wild right now. I'm not sure what is going on with her. She's gotten super clingy. She's telling us more and more stuff now. When she is tired and ready for nap or bed she's half way back the hall and climbing up in bed before you can stop her to even change her into her night clothes. She says night night now. She climbs up in bed with her blankie and her kitty. So cute. She pretty much sleeps in bed the whole night. Now for nap time, she'll lay down for a bit but sometimes she gets up and plays. But majority of the time when she is tired she'll grab her blankie and lay down all by herself.

Speaking of tired... That's what I am...

P90X

All I can say is wow. I did the ab ripper work out tonight and I'm so feeling it. I didn't even do all of it. It's pretty nice because you don't need a whole lot of room at all. Also, you can modify some of the work outs for beginners and you can also make them a little harder. I did pretty good for a first timer. My abs are killing me right now. It gives you a really good complete feeling after working out. Even my legs feel good from some of the workouts. It doesn't take very long at all, but I can see how this would tone you up in no time... Hopefully I can stick to it, and it won't irritate my back any more than what it already is.

I might move to another workout once I do this one for awhile. It has such a variety of exercises. It's nice to switch it up and kinda trick the body. It feels good.

Counting down--update

Well Christmas is right around the corner. A week away to be exact. It's still up in the air, but I might be working Christmas eve. It's only for a few hours so it's really no biggie. Then we'll head over to Jeff's. I'm gonna get pictures of the kids and Jeff. Then I'm going to get pictures of all the kids. This should be fun. When time comes to work on April's scrap book, I'll have tons of pictures...

We'll head to my family's gathering on Christmas and I can't wait. I'll have tons of pictures from there too. I'll make Jason take pictures on Christmas eve of April opening her gifts from his mom if I have to work.

I'm so excited. This is my favorite part of the year. This is one of the few times, now that my WHOLE family gets together due to my aunt being out of state. Unfortunately she can't stay long this year. Just in town long enough to see everyone. I have Christmas eve off (maybe), Christmas day off and then the two days off after Christmas. April I think is staying with my mom for a few days maybe.

Right now at work, our supervisor is out this month due to her husband's health. So, we're trying to cover all her shifts. She works mornings and it's not too hard to do right now. Everyone is usually willing to help out and make sure that shifts are covered and everything gets taken care of. Ugh.. well that's about it.


Well, I just got the confirmation that I'll be working Christmas eve. It's only for a few hours, so it's not that big of deal. I've worked before in the past on Christmas eve all day and it really sucks.

Yuckies.

Seems like when colds go around every one gets them. Jason had something, gave it to me, now April has it. I felt like crap for a few days. I finally took some different medicine last night and it seemed to really kick my butt. April is taking longer naps. She just doesn't seem to be her spunky self. She just wants to be held. She almost fell asleep in my arms earlier, but I couldn't feel my arms so I had to just lay her down. She tells us though when she is ready, she either grabs her kitty or her blanket. She tries to wrap the blanket around her. Then she lays her head down. So cute. My mom taught her how to put her arms up when she says touch down. She had a blast at grandma's.

I love when I walk in the door and she wants to run over and hug me. She's my little angel. No matter what happens she'll always know that I love her, and I'm proud of her. She'll always have her parents who will always be there for her.

Why oh why

A while back some one gave me some advice. I thought about it. I dismissed it. I didn't want to listen to it, because of who it came from. Now however, I'm wishing that I did listen a little more carefully and take that advice to heart. The tables have been turned and things are usually viewed differently when that happens. It's ok though. Things will work out like they always do. It's just something that puts you in a different frame of mind. Makes you see things differently. Changes how you feel. I can't go into it right now, because I have to get ready for work. But thinking about it makes me angry, and also disappointed.

Weekend and more

Well this past weekend was pretty good. We dropped April off on Friday with her grandma. Saturday Amber picked me up and we headed to lunch. We ran some errands and eventually made it to the house. We all got ready for the wedding and eventually made it to the church. The ceremony was pretty nice. The reception was nice. I was able to get a lot of pictures. I got to use a super good camera too. It was so exciting. This thing blows cannon away oh my gosh. It blows a lot of cameras away. I loved it. I so want one but I don't have hundreds of dollars. Anyways, after the reception was over and we cleaned up we headed back to Jeff's. Watched a few movies and passed out from being so tired. Sunday morning, Jason picked me up and came back home. We crashed for a few hours before heading up to get April and our new dresser for April's room. It's pretty nice. Today we headed to the mall and got a new power cord for my computer. We got a nice and sturdy one this time lol. Well, that is about it. I'm just killing time before I head to work.

super cool

Well, April is with her grandma now. I'm free for the weekend. No work, no baby. It feels good to take a break. I know come tomorrow I'm gonna be missing her more though... But I get her back on Sunday. Her grandma actually asked if she had to giver her back lol. I can't stand being away from her too long so heck yeah I want her back lol.

We picked up our new microwave tonight. It totally kicks butt. It is so quiet you can barely even hear it running. It looks super cool too. Stainless steel and digital display. I love it. It cooks food really nicely too. Over all, it was an awesome buy.

So, I just learned a bunch new settings and tricks for my camera. Since the wedding is tomorrow and I'm taking pictures, I thought that I would play around with it and found a bunch info on it that I had no idea could be done. My test pictures look pretty dang good. I'm hoping that it helps for tomorrow. I have a feeling I'm going to have issues with the lighting like I did at the last wedding. I hope it works. I still wish I could get a hot shoe flash. That would be sweet. But they aren't cheap.

Oh well... I think that is it. I can't wait till tomorrow.

20 pounds gone

Well, I've finally weighed in. I've met my goal of losing 20 pounds. I'm still not sure where it's all coming off of...ok well some areas.. I'm aware lol. I've actually lost 21 pounds. I haven't weighed in for a couple weeks. I use the scale at work, it's more accurate. But the scale at home still stays in the same range of the scale at work. So I know I'm some where in the ball park of 21 pounds. I'm pretty sure I'm right this time then normal because when that time of the month comes, I actually lose a few pounds unlike most who gain. It's strange but I'm not complaining. So I need to for sure reward myself. I'm happy.

baby free weekend...

I already worked on this post earlier until Jason decided to close my browser window not knowing what I was doing. :( Oh well, it's all good.

Tomorrow afternoon starts the baby free weekend for us. I can't wait. I know that sounds horrible, but I want some time to myself dang it. Plus, the wedding is this weekend and I don't wanna have to watch her while I'm trying to take pictures and just have some fun. It's going to be a late night. The wedding isn't until later, but I'll be with Amber most of the day and helping to get stuff ready.

Today was a very cold day. Work wasn't bad, but it was cold. I was glad to get home though and eat some yummy pizza. We tried this new pizza from Great Value today. It's bacon, cheese and chicken. Super good. So far, I'm doing good with it. I can't handle the meat pizzas anymore which sucks in a way, but I'm kinda glad. But this was super good. Great Value has some pretty good stuff. I deep fried some of their seasoned fries today for lunch and they turned out really good. Some of their stuff tastes better than some name brand stuff I think.

Tomorrow we hopefully get a new microwave. I'm hoping. It's a stainless steel one. Pretty cool looking. I'm hoping to pick up a new pair of pants also. My nice dress pants don't fit me anymore. I can get away with jeans being too big because I wear a belt, but not in dress pants. My dress pants are almost three sizes too big.

Heck, I've lost 19 pounds last time I weighed in which I really need to do again soon.... 19 more to go and I'll have a healthy BMI. It's hard some times. It really is. Sometimes I really wanna just give up and stop paying so close attention as I am and just let go. But I can't. I know I can't. I'm not in any hurry to drop the weight. I want to do it slowly and maintain as I go. There for my body will adapt so much easier. So far, it's working.

Anyways, I think that is it. I was going to go into some thing else, but my bed is calling my name.

Time flies

I can't believe it's December already. It's amazing how fast this year has gone by. Never thought that we would be where we are today... it's all good though. I can't wait until next year though. Big things happening... But I'm grateful for what we have now. I feel like we just had Christmas though. April will have fun this year. She's going to have fun trying to open all the gifts. She tried to open my cousins gifts on her birthday. She'll do pretty good this year. We have a few more gifts to get and we are done with Christmas shopping. We dug out all of our wrapping paper and I'm excited to start wrapping.

Monday night we headed down to Cincinnati and walked around fountain square. It was pretty with all the lights and the skating rink. We saw a few horses and April kept trying to follow them. She did awesome. She walked around with us. When it came to the steps, she actually refused to give Jason her hand because she wanted to hold onto the rail and go down by herself. So cute. She has become so independent. She gets in her bed all by herself and lays down. She tries to get in her chair all by herself. She wants to sit on her potty more and more. She even tried to climb into the bathtub the other day all by herself. She says "hot" and now she says "up".

I made chili tonight and it was so good. I actually put it in the crock pot and let it sit for the afternoon. I wanted it to be nice and done when I got home from work. It was super yummy. I even felt more glad that I had made it when I got to work and it started raining. It was so cold.. if it hadn't been windy it would have been ok. But, that's why I got my out door wear... thank goodness. I really do love my job. I've never had a job where I could say that I honestly loved it. It is so fun and it's so full filling. I like knowing that I'm doing something good. I like the bonds that I develop.

Oh I guess that is mostly it. I've pretty much lost track of my thoughts. I got wrapped up in something on tv lol. I'm excited though for this weekend... baby free the whole weekend... and I'm off.... I have a wedding on Saturday that I have to take pictures at. It'll be fun. I need to remember though to charge my batteries. These new batteries we got are pretty awesome. They work so much better in my camera. Love them. They last way longer than regular batteries and they can be recharged.

Ok now seriously I'm done...

New Challenge

Well, I'm proud to say that I'm taking part in a new challenge. It's a ab core work out, and it's a strength training work out/test. It's 5 weeks long. I'm gonna be so sore, I know I am. But, it's going to help for sure. It's a great idea, and I know it's what I need to get my butt back in the saddle. My back has given me so many problems the past two months that I kinda stopped working out like I should be. I'm still loosing, but I've stopped losing the inches off my tummy. I've lost a few which is great, but I gotta get back at it. This should help me with my back. I miss my tight tummy... one day it will return. One day lol. But, I'm excited. I'm ready for a new challenge. I've already dropped below 150. Now I need to spice things up and do something new and different. I love being able to fit into a jrs 9 again. It's a great feeling. I'd love to be in a 7 though again, but I'm happy with where I am for now :)

People

Sometimes people can be so annoying. I don't know. I go through these little tiffs where there is someone who I can't stand. I don't know why. It's just I nit pick at everything and it drives me crazy. Least this time, it's not just me. I know I eventually get over it, but I think it has something to do with the amount of time that we spend together. I'm not talking about Jason lol. Then there is the fact that the person refuses to listen and to grow up. Oh well.

April is sitting on her potty more. She sits down on it when I am in the bathroom. She's still in her clothes, but I want her to feel comfortable with it and like the potty. She actually tries to open the lid so she can sit down on it. I'm so proud of her, today she took a very good nap in her big girl bed. She sleeps all through the night in it, but the naps we were having problems with because she wanted to get out of bed an play. Today she didn't. I know she was exhausted from yesterday, and slept very well last night. I figured that she would take a good nap today. She didn't go to bed until after 8 this evening.

Christmas is going to be so much fun this year. I have 4 days off in a row. I'm so happy about it. I get to spend time with family, and do our Christmas get togethers for both sides. My aunt is coming in from Maryland for a few days this Christmas so I have some extra time to spend with her this year.

I have to get new tires soon. Not looking forward to that. The front ones need replaced. It's on the list of things that my poor car needs. It runs so much better now that Jason worked on it. I still can't believe how bad the dealership messed it up.

Another thing that I'm looking forward is our friends wedding. I can't wait, I was asked to take pictures. Plus, we'll be baby free that weekend... I get to take pictures and enjoy myself at the wedding with out worrying about April getting into everything.

Things are going good. We got some plans and hopefully all goes well.

Yummy

I'm so excited that Jason and I finally got to have our dinner at Outback. It was for our anniversary. I had a 50 dollar gift card just for it that I got for free. It was a great dinner. I love their food. After dinner we headed over to Jeff's for a few and relaxed.

Today was a long and busy day. We got up kinda early and had a nice breakfast. Then we headed to home depot to get a few items. We headed out to pick up a big screen tv that I'm in love with now... I so can't wait to sit down and watch it. After that we headed over to Chris's house and hung out there for a bit. It's been a long time since we've been over there and the house is looking awesome with the Christmas decorations.

After Chris's house we headed out to meet Jeff for dinner and then went to his sister's house to get his atv. Had fun. I got to see Mandi's baby boy finally. So precious. It was so cool to sit and talk with her about all kinds of stuff while our babies slept in our arms lol.

It's been a long day, April did great. She was so tired by the time we got home. She's sacked out in her big girl bed which she loves by the way and is doing so good in.

So it's time to go relax.