Posted Date: : Mar 7, 2007 12:25 PM
Over the past few years I have come to realize some things... Everything changes...that's the one thing that doesn't change... People change. They can change just as fast as the weather changes. They may seem to be the person you know on the outside but totally different on the inside. I've really come to figure that out with some of my friends. They seem to want to be there and in your life and then all of a sudden they're not. That's just what happens. It's life. I'm not going to be the person I am now in 5 years from now, I'll be different, hopefully more mature with whatever happens in those 5 years. I'm more mature now then I was 5 years ago. We change and there's no stopping it. What I have come to figure out, is that I am going some place. Both Jason and I are going places. Jason is hopefully getting a better job here...we'll know soon! I'm getting into school, I'm making more money, and I am really rediscovering my dreams. I'm happy. I'm happy with where I am but I want to do more. I'm not going to sit around and wait for those who don't want to be around me to catch up. If you wanna be in my life then ok, but I'm not fighting for a friendship that goes both ways and I only see one side....But your no where to be seen. It hurts and it makes me angry. I'm not going to sit around at home and do nothing. I'm going to go out with people and have fun. This summer I am going to be so busy...between working full time, school, and helping out at Erica's and spending time with Jason and other friends. I can't wait. I want to be busy and full of hope that things are going to stay positive in my life. There are so many more things to life than just sex and money, and I've learned that in my life, more so since I got with Jason. Basically I think it's time for me to cut my strings loose, and just go all out and let no one or anything stop me. I don't have the time to wait for others, who would rather be left behind. Yes, this is directed towards several people. Not the whole thing, just parts here and there towards different people. But hey it's a blog and I have that right to vent my feelings towrads my so called friends don't I?
