First Day!

tomorrow is my first day of classes and i can't wait!!! ?
this is such a big deal for me. i can't believe that i have made it this far. i never thought that i would get through the financial aid stuff since no one really helped me. i'm pretty excited to start. things are going pretty well. i'm happy. i love my new computer. it's so fast and smooth. i can take anywhere in the apartment and use it and i have the internet! yay me. okay anyways.... so a girl got fired at work. pretty crazy. lots of drama at work with people stealing and stuff. they tell me that at the rate that i am going i will be getting a 15% raise in may...if i make it that long....i am trying to hold out... i may be dropping down to part time..i'm not sure...now that jason will be bringing home about 1300 a week we'll be fine. i need to start saving again anyways. when i get my raise i'll be close to 10 an hour....
I'm hoping that Jasons new job works out...i'm gonna have to get use to him not being here at night. thats gonna be hard. i'll come home to an empty apartment but i'll wake up to him. in a couple months we're taking our first vacation together if all goes right. i can't wait. things are going so well for us. i'm happy. i'm off my medicine and i'm positive. i don't look for the negatives anymore. i dont want to. i'm starting to eat better and now that its summer we'll be going out to the farm more and doing more stuff, we went out tonight. it's so peaceful out there. i love it out there. andy and his mom are coming into town next weekend which will be fun. well i should be getting to bed...i have to get up early and go to work and then off to class!!!

dreams

Dreams are a reflection of our world, what is, what was and what will be. We see other reality's, other times, other selves, we are not born just once but many and our shadows prevail us. We walk these worlds with out realizing we are among others and yet we are alone. Danger comes when we become too embodied to flesh in our dreams, Pain in these dreams equals pain in waking and death, you may never wake again. Dreams are where our demons lay, and angles of our salvation pray, and souls hang in the balance.

Chat with a friend

Posted Date: : Mar 19, 2007 6:41 AM

This weekend was awesome. I was off! Yay. Okay anyways Friday I had to work, boo. Saturday I had my job interview and that went really good. Jason and I went out and went shopping and spent some time together. That was cool. I met Katie for dinner after she got off work at petsmart and we went to Fridays. That was nice. We were there for almost two hours I think. That was fun and enjoyable. Sunday I went to the Louisville dog show with my aunt and picked up the new dog that she got to give her other doggy a friend. We had one put down Christmas. But this dog is like the one we have. I'll post pictures of her later! I have to go to work now...I hope that I get this job because it would still give me full time hours but I would have more free time! And My weekends back....we're already starting to do stuff at the farm...it's that time again.

My IHOP adventure

So...I went to IHOP tonight for like the first time ever....I know...I'm slow... I had a bunch of fun. Mary and Kemisha were my two gals that I went with. They crack me up. We have so much fun at work together. Around them, all you do is laugh. You can't help but laugh. We were there for like an hour and Miss Mary who works for another IHOP I mind you, was picky about everything.... All in good love though.... It was fun being able to sit down and just laugh for while.

Angela keeps bugging me to go to Metropolis with her tomorrow night but I think Andy is going to be in town and I would like to spend some time with Jason and it would be cool to see Andy also. We may end up going bowling or something. We might even end up at Erica's making a bon-fire or something... who knows! I really should get to sleep...But I'm not really tired. I have to open tomorrow....then Saturday is our prom event and I finally picked out a dress...it's a bright dreen lime kinda neon at the top and darker at the bottom... it's strapless and I like it... I look like a glow stick....but oh well. I still have to pick out shoes... I'm thinking silver.... I'm not sure....But I'm so taking my flip flops....

I wanna be...

Posted Date: : Mar 7, 2007 12:25 PM

Over the past few years I have come to realize some things... Everything changes...that's the one thing that doesn't change... People change. They can change just as fast as the weather changes. They may seem to be the person you know on the outside but totally different on the inside. I've really come to figure that out with some of my friends. They seem to want to be there and in your life and then all of a sudden they're not. That's just what happens. It's life. I'm not going to be the person I am now in 5 years from now, I'll be different, hopefully more mature with whatever happens in those 5 years. I'm more mature now then I was 5 years ago. We change and there's no stopping it. What I have come to figure out, is that I am going some place. Both Jason and I are going places. Jason is hopefully getting a better job here...we'll know soon! I'm getting into school, I'm making more money, and I am really rediscovering my dreams. I'm happy. I'm happy with where I am but I want to do more. I'm not going to sit around and wait for those who don't want to be around me to catch up. If you wanna be in my life then ok, but I'm not fighting for a friendship that goes both ways and I only see one side....But your no where to be seen. It hurts and it makes me angry. I'm not going to sit around at home and do nothing. I'm going to go out with people and have fun. This summer I am going to be so busy...between working full time, school, and helping out at Erica's and spending time with Jason and other friends. I can't wait. I want to be busy and full of hope that things are going to stay positive in my life. There are so many more things to life than just sex and money, and I've learned that in my life, more so since I got with Jason. Basically I think it's time for me to cut my strings loose, and just go all out and let no one or anything stop me. I don't have the time to wait for others, who would rather be left behind. Yes, this is directed towards several people. Not the whole thing, just parts here and there towards different people. But hey it's a blog and I have that right to vent my feelings towrads my so called friends don't I?

Good feeling

So today I felt pretty good when Jason calls me while at work and says that he needed some one to talk too. He woke me up first of all but I didn't mind. He said that he just needed some one to talk to because he was trying not to just quit and walk out. It made me feel pretty damn good to hear him say he needed to talk and he calls me. I felt good. Things are going very well and I'm so happy. He's getting better with asking me how I am and if I seem mad he asks me now gently and he seems concerned with me. I'm so happy!!