I got my wings

Well, I took my first plane trip yesterday. It was so much fun. I flew from Dayton to Washington Dulles, to visit my aunt in Maryland. The flight was fun. I had a window seat. I got to see so much it was amazing. The colors of the fields and the grassy patches and the tiny little houses was so cool. It was like looking at a completely different world. The descend wasn't as fun. It actually hurt my chest a little. It was a bumpy landing but i can't wait to do it again. I wasn't nervous at all. I was very calm. It was like I was a pro or something at it. It was so cool.

The flight was only for an hour and something but it seemed like a 15 minute trip and we were there. There weren't too many people on the plane. The airport that I flew out of was so calm and not too busy. But when I landed there were people everywhere! It was crazy. I found my baggage and then I couldn't find my driver. He was sent to the wrong baggage belt and was waiting for me there. I had to call and they had to send him to the right one. He was nice. It took over 20 minutes to leave the airport. The lines leaving to pay for parking were crazy. There were 5 lines but 3 closed. lines of traffic had to merge to 2 lines of traffic. People wouldn't let people in, and this lady got out of her car and started yelling at the guy that was trying to get traffic in to the two lanes. She was crazy. The traffic on the highway was worse. I thought that Cincinnati traffic was bad, oh my this was so much worse.

Today was cool. We went shopping and I got some clothes which is part of my xmas present but I need them now for work. That was pretty nice. Thanksgiving dinner was pretty good. I ate way too much. Oh well. It was worth it. Once I move out I'm going to be the one cooking, and depending on how well I can manage getting down the whole cooking thing... I may not be eating that well for awhile. Oh well, Jason has tv dinners for a reason. I miss him so much!

Tomorrow is going to be fun. We're getting up early to go shopping on Black Friday! Hopefully to get a computer.. Who knows. I want some dvds. That'll be fun. Then we're going to catch a train into Washington DC and go to the Spy Museum. I can't wait to go sight seeing. I brought Jason's camera for a reason.

Well I miss Jason so much. I've been away from him for like two days. I won't see him till Monday sometime but I miss him. I can't wait to get the hell out my house and get in the apartment. I need my personal space for my life. My life needs to get rolling. I feel like it's at a standstill. I need to get out and going. I have school soon, hopefully with in the next few weeks I can find a much better job. I need to bring in much more money than I am right now. I'm bringing in what I brought in at my old job for one week every two weeks now. Even though I won't be paying rent, I still need to try to help out as much as I can.

Well I think that is all for now. I'll update more later!

I see changes...

Well...Things are changing. I know that I haven't been on here much. I've been doing a lot of work on the farm and at work. I fly out tomorrow to Washington DC to see my aunt. When I come back I plan on moving out and in with Jason. He won't charge me anything as long as I keep up the apartment and do my share of the cleaning and stuff. I'll occupy it more than he will anyways. I like the cleaning and the laundry and stuff. It makes me miss my own apartment. I'll only be working at B&B for a little bit longer anyways. So the drive won't be too bad. I'm looking for vet jobs in the area around him and then I have to transfer my school stuff to the branch that is closer to him. Hopefully I can get back up on my feet. I don't usually look forward to moving but I am right now.

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Well...I've vanished for a few days. I always feel better when I come back home after Jason's. I feel relaxed. We do lots of things in two days its crazy. Friday we had our yard sale at home which went okay I guess. I was more focused on cleaning out the garage. I went over to Jasons friday night. WE went out to the horse farm to do some more work I mostly cleaned in my spare time around the apartment. He's never home so I helped him out. We went grocery shopping. Sunday I got to meet his mom and brother. That was fun. Then we went to New Richmond Ohio to look at the Dam and Locks, which now they have locked off the Locks. But we still hiked around and looked at the boats and stuff. Over all we had a good weekend. We're talking about future trips that we can take. He wants to go to West Virgina and so many other places. Right now, we're concentrating on having fun. Going places and doing things and not so much on the relationship. We're getting to know each other. We're having fun doing it. So I'm getting out and doing things and having so much fun doing it. Spending the weekend with him is like a vacation. That's it for now!!

Good friends

So I just had like a 2 hour conversation with my really good friend Trish. I t felt good to be able to talk to some one who knows what I'm going through with certain things. Her advice and input means a lot to me.
I think that I am the happiest that I have been in such a long time. It feels so good. It feels so good to know that some one wants me. What is better is knowing that I want that person back. He constantly pushes me. There was no way that I could have hiked as much as I did last weekend if he wasn't there. He pushes me. He tells me that I can do more than I allow myself to think. He tells me that I'm beautiful and that I shouldn't change myself. He makes me feel complete. I feel safe. He gave me a key to his apartment. He's let me drive his truck. I even cleaned his aprtment and did laundry. It was nice to help him out. He's so busy doing stuff for others. I love that kind of stuff anyways. He cooks for me. I want to spend all the time that I can there. But I know that I shouldn't. I know that we need our space from each other. We went to New Richmond yesterday and it was so peaceful. Cute little town. We got to talking about all the places that we can go. He's been alot of places. He's told me about alot of places that he wants to take me. I'm so excited. Yay!!

Update...yes I'm still alive

Well... Jason and I are official. This past weekend he and I became official. I'm pretty happy about it. I even have a key to the apartment. That makes me feel good. That way I can sleep in when he gets up early for work and leaves at 4am. It's going really good right. Once I realized that I have to let my guard down sometime in order to let some one in, and I did. I see him differently now. I enjoy his company and we have fun. There is so much work to do on the horse show farm still. A lot of stuff to do before the winter. I've spent almost every day with him since Friday. The only thing is that I have other friends too that I have to spend time. I miss my Val-Val. I haven't seen her. And I feel bad because I was supossed to see my friend yesterday but couldn't. This weekend there's the yard sale and there is still plenty of work to do for that. I was going to have tomorrow off but I am going in to work. I need the hours. Ah..all for now~!

Escape from reality

I had so much fun this weekend. First off- Friday was awesome. After work I drove out to Milford and met my friend Jason at his moms house. Then we went bowling with a friend of ours. Good times. I got to drive my friends new truck home. That was cool. It's his lil baby and he let me drive it. We did other little stuff with Andy before bowling but that doesn't really matter. They're into their guy stuff and making money I just tag along. Moving on... Saturday we drove up to Hamilton to the scrap yard- Again me tagging along... The boys made over a hundred each for their stuff. Then Jason and I went to Red River Gorge. I'm so outta shape. We spent most of the day out there hiking around and enjoying the peace. It's so beautiful out there at this time of the year. I was very slow at first climbing a huge hill...it seemed more like a mountain to me. But Jason kept pushing me and he kept telling me that I could do it. I made it to the top and it was worth it. My legs hurt like hell, but it was beautiful. We hiked around for a bit and then headed down to the creek that goes through the mountains and it was so quiet and so peaceful. It was nice listening to the water as it ran over the rocks and through the mountains and around. Jason was so sweet, he bought me boots on Saturday so that I could hike more easier. He said that everyone should have a pair of boots. That was very kind of him. So after that, we headed home and I got into cleaning mode...I felt bad for him because he works so hard and works so much during the week at his job and doing other side jobs for another friend of ours. So I made him get a beer and sit his ass down and watch some tv. I cleaned the bathroom and the kitchen. I enjoyed doing it. It made me feel good to do something for him, he's spent so much money on me this weekend I wanted to try and help him out. Sunday was pretty cool. We headed out to Erica's and planted some flowers for her and then got started on a trailer that Jason got for free. I got to play with power tools. That was fun. I got to play with a sander! It was fun learning how to do new things. I enjoyed my weekend. It was like a mini vacation. Since I have realized that I have a fear of letting guys get close, I let down my guard for a while this weekend and realized how much fun I could have with him, I saw him differently for once. I actually didn't want to leave.. But I plan on trying to spend more time with him and see what happens. Well I just got home and its 5:04 in the morning. I need to lay down before work.