Friday, January 4, 2013
My life?
I'm 27 years old. I have a 4 year old daughter and a wonderful man. Upon getting pregnant I never really had many issues with my weight. It never really bothered me too much. I was pretty active. I wasn't one to sit at home on my butt playing on the computer or watching TV all day. I was usually outside doing something. After my pregnancy I realized that I had put on some extra weight. No biggies. I told myself that I could take care of it whenever I wanted. I came to the conclusion that I was indeed in denial. When I went back to work for the first time after having my daughter I worked at a dog kennel where I was over active. I lost over 40 pounds in little over a year of working there. I had not only lost 40 pounds but I had lost over 30 inches of body fat. I cut out almost all my pop. I wasn't eating fast food. I wasn't eating sweets. I felt good about myself. I was down to my lowest since high school. I was close to 130. I loved it. I felt great about myself. Then my gallbladder had to come out. Once that happened I switched jobs. I went to a job that wasn't nearly as active as my other job was. Back came the pop and the weight. There were also other changes that were made, birth control was a major one. I gained good amount of weight on that. But I'm back to the point where I know that I need and I want to make the changes again. I was going to the gym for awhile but it really cut into my school time and my family time. I tried going late, then it cut into my sleeping time. I feel stuck. I want to work out, but with work, school, and my daughter it makes it hard. Not having some one to watch her so that I can go at time that works for me is a huge set back. I would love to have treadmill or an elliptical but we have no room for it in the house. I could go walking around the neighborhood but my daughter walks so slow, or if she rides her bike she gets far and then stops. I end up having to drag everything back. Or she just wines and makes it miserable. I'm hoping that this summer she's better with it. I still don't eat a lot of fast food. I'm drinking pop but thankfully not like I was. I feel like my only hopes of ever getting my body back is waiting until my daughter is in school. I know that I have to make a commitment to doing this but I don't see how I can at this point. I think that's why I've failed in the past.