Well, we're only a few weeks away from April turning three. I can't get over how much she has grown. We're working on potty training and learning things. She's learning new words, new phrases, and lots of others things. And of course things I wish she wasn't learning...like a few bad words.... but luckily she doesn't say them often. Yet lol...
We're going through a phase right now of her being difficult with night time, and lights. She wants her night lights on now. Before it was just the small one, but now it's the bigger ones. But, as soon as I turn them on she pretty much gets in bed and goes to sleep. Sometimes she plays in her room for a bit, but then she gets in bed and goes to sleep all on her own. It doesn't bother me too much.
She is becoming more and more independent. Wants to do mostly everything on her own. But, when she can't she does get frustrated. She gets frustrated very easily sometimes. But it's a part of growing up. She's becoming very whiny. Which in return irritates the crap out of me.
I am hoping that will change soon. I am waiting to hear back from the doctor too see if I can go back on a medicine that really helped with my anxiety, and my stress. It helped with the mood swings and my eating. It decreased my appetite just to where it was normal. I lost some weight but not too much. It helped me stay calm, and relax. When I'm relaxed I can think and my thoughts are not all over the place like they have been lately. That drives me nuts. I hate not being able to get my thoughts in order.
I feel like I'm a chicken running around with my head cut off... sometimes the littlest things get to me. Mostly April not listening. That really gets to me. When I have to tell her 4-5 times to stop doing something. Plus the whining is really getting to me. I can't think when I hear her whining bad. Not the normal whining, but the bad whining.
I am hoping that she will let me go back on it. I'm already back on the birth control. That has helped to a degree. But I can tell that my body is starting to adapt and change to it. My feelings are changing. The way I feel. It's helping, but I need something more.
