Christmas and other things

This Christmas wasn't exactly the best for us. Us meaning the three of us. We didn't exchange gifts or get April anything. She got things from her family on both sides and that's really fine with me. She's not old enough to remember who gets her what, or really what she even got. I was hoping that I would get paid before Christmas but I didn't so that put a little damper on the mood. But for everyone else, I got some of the gifts a while back. But, hopefully next year will be better.

So... going back April was able to see her cousin for a few hours the day before Christmas Eve. I guess they had fun. I really wasn't there too long as I came from work and was pretty much ready to go home and go to bed. But, from what I saw they did fine.

Christmas Eve, we went to Jason's mom's house. She bought us food from Applebee's. April opened her gifts which she's pretty happy with. Jason and I got giftcards, and we got her a little bath set. I'm excited to use my Bath and Body Works gift card. I can't wait. I'm in need of some new good smelly stuff. Jason and I used our other gift card and actually bought groceries. It came in handy.

Christmas Day, the three of us went to the Waffle House. We went to the one in Kentucky which is the one we usually go too. Had a nice breakfast. I really enjoyed spending some time with just the three of us on Christmas Day. After that, we headed up to see my family. Had a light lunch and then hung out and talked with everyone. I had a lot of laughs with my sisters which was pretty cool. It's been awhile. I really hope I can start to see them more often.

I took tons of pictures. I'm happy, one of the gifts that I got, which my other sister also got was a picture frame that has the word sister's on it so we took a picture of the three of us and I'm going to get them printed up so that we can each have a copy.

We all gathered together in the basement and opened gifts. Again, I took lots of pictures. We all got really nice things. I got a gift card that I applied towards my new shoes that I got today. A really nice pair of Nikes. It's been awhile since I actually got a pair of shoes that cost more than 20 bucks. Jason's mom gave me a nice pair but with my new job I have to have a pair of shoes that have good traction. I also got a new pair of work pants. The shoes were originally 79.00 but they were on sale for 49.00, and the pants were originally 29.00 and I got them for 19.00. So it was 70 something after taxes and I only ended up paying 20 bucks. I really like the shoes. They are super comfy.

April got a new car seat. She's out grown the one in my car, so she got a new one. She got some clothes, toys, books, and some other things. Over all she did really good. I love the fact that what she got were mostly learning toys. Not just toys but learning toys. She got the fridge letter magnets. She loves them. She figured it out in less a few seconds. It's an awesome way for her to learn all her letters, and they're color coated so she can learn vowels and how to spell.

I always enjoy spending time with my family. There are certain things that go on in life that make me more happy to have them. I see other people and their actions and I just thank my lucky stars that my life isn't that way... or the fact that I don't act the way some people do. I'm glad that I don't broadcast certain things. Everyone doesn't have to read everything... some things should just be kept private. I don't think people really think about how the things they say make them really look. If you say one thing, that you don't want in your life then don't turn around and make it to where that's all you have. It's non sense.

I'm not perfect. I've said this time and time again. I'll admit it. I never preach to be perfect. But, there are some things in life that I don't do. I don't hate for sure. I don't want my daughter to grow up hating any one for any reason. I'll let her make her choices with out any influence from me to the best of my ability. I refuse to sit here and broadcast every little thing. I wish that people would realise how bad it makes them look. No one should have to be afraid to say normal things for how some one else might take them. It's unfair.

But anyways, moving on. Things are going pretty good here now. I'm working about 40 hours a week. I'm liking it so far. I got my first pay check today. It felt so good to have money come into my account. I wanted a job, so I looked. I kept looking. I got a call and I went. I'm not giving up on it. Regardless of what happens. I stayed at my other job for a year and a half. If it weren't for needing more pay, and the benefits well I would still be there most likely.

Well, that's about it for now. I need to get off here and hop in the shower before Jason gets off work so I can fix him food.

April 30 Month Check up

Took April to the doctor today. She received 6 shots. That was her vaccinations that she was behind on, due for and a flu shot. Not bad. She's almost 30 pounds. Couldn't get a height on her because she wouldn't stand still enough. But over all she's doing good. She's right where she needs to be in all places. We don't have to go back for a whole year. They even gave her a book she could keep. She loves it. It's a Snow White book. Over all it was a good visit. I felt bad that she had to get 6 shots. But she's all good now. She took it like a trooper. Took two of us to hold her down. But, she was jumping on the couch just a few minutes ago so I figure she's not in too much pain :)

First whole day by myself

So today was my first day working all by myself. I think I did pretty good. I got everything done with just enough time to restock my cart and clock out on time. I really like it so far. The residents are really nice. Well, most of them are. I'm starting to get my favourites. I really like it. It's a nice job. The work is normal. It's pretty easy actually. But it is real easy to get caught up in something. But I like it. If things continue this way, I could really see myself being there for a while. I'm glad that I made the change.

I'm so proud

It feels really good to be back working an 8 hour shift. It's different. I have to get back in the swing of things. But, when that pay check comes it'll be worth it. I can finally get back to getting things I need. Buying my own stuff, is a good feeling. Plus to be able to pay off bills and have money left over (hopefull lol) not squirming to get by like we are now. I'm so happy. It's been way too long and I have forgotten what it is like to have more than 20 bucks in your checking account with a week left until you get paid and your sitting on empty in your gas tank. I truly think that things are going to get better.

Potty Time

April is doing awesome on her potty. I'm so proud of her. She went potty today in her potty and boy did she fill it up... with one going. I was happy with how long she held it. We're progressing for sure.

April and her potty

April went to the potty twice today. I'm so proud of her. When she actually pays attention and listens she does so much. She sat on her potty and went twice. She was so happy with herself. She smiled and laughed. You could tell she was proud. I rewarded her with a cookie. She loved it.

Ugh..

I will most likely never see the point in doing things, doing what I'm asked to do, or what I feel like doing to have some one come behind me and either redo it, or take it upon themselves to finish something that I was to finish. Why waste my time?

I woke up this morning to bitching which really put me in a shitty mood. I did get an apology but guess what the damage is already done. Don't say you want me to do one thing one way and then when I do it, turn around and do it yourself another way. Ugh. I don't appreciate it. So now I'm stomping around making it known that I'm not in a good mood and I really don't give a rat's ass. Plus I tend to curse a little more :) Not towards people of course. Wow life can be a bitch sometimes. Oh well. I'll move on and get over it like normal. I'm just venting because I can. Sometimes I think it does me good to vent. I haven't been really venting lately. I should. It makes me feel a lot better when I do vent. So yeah.

What else is going on.... Mise well move on to a more positive note...

April is doing great with her picture books. She's identifying more and more objects. She is pointing out more and more things on the tv, and computer. She's really making more sentences actually make sense. If she needs help, she asks for it. She'll ask others if they need help. She says sorry, asks if your alright. Still working on the whole please thing. If she's not paying attention she'll say it. But when you address it, she won't say it.

I guess that is it for now. I really don't feel like writing anymore.

Good things... Being Hopeful and staying postive...

Tomorrow or Tuesday I should know for sure. I can't really say anything yet. I want to get the official answer first. There are some people who might see this and things might get a little sticky... so I have to wait and find out first then I can say something. I can't wait. I so can't wait. This is something that I need big time. We all need it bad for us right now. I can't wait until I have the opportunity to go and do things that need to be taken care of. Hopefully the stressful days will be over soon, or at least hopefully this helps calm things down to a good point.

So far things are going great. Things in certain areas are starting to improve just like I hoped. I am doing one step at a time. This is what I need to do. For me. For my family. This is a nice chance for me to finally get somewhere... I'm so excited. I feel so good about it.

I know that if this doesn't happen for some reason which I can't think of one, but if it doesn't, it's ok. I'm not going to sit on my butt and feel sorry for myself any more. I really didn't before, I just haven't really been active the past few months. I have given up on doing a lot of things. I need to get back into the swing of my hobbies. I've started a few things, but have never finished them. Well, it's time to get them finished.

I refuse to sit here though and bitch and complain. I'm going to look at things from a different view. I need to stay positive. I need to set my course of action and do it. If I want something, then I'm going to get it. I don't expect others to give it to me. Or to come to my rescue. Things are different, and are changing and I'm so excited for it.

Hopeful Course of Action

Well tomorrow I have a job interview. It's in a nice area. It is in a nice facility. And, it's with an old manager of mine. I can't believe that he called me. I'm very excited. I'm hoping that it all works out. It's not to far from here. I know it'll be better pay and they offer benefits. That's what I need. I need to be able to go to the doctor when I need to. I can't wait. I hope that it goes good. I'm only nervous because I have to get shots most likely. I hate shots. But another step towards the right direction.