Good times

Today April and I went out after I got some laundry done. We went to Batavia to drop some stuff off and then headed to the library for a while. April likes the library. She likes all the books. After we checked out we swung by the park for awhile. April loves the slide. There is a double slide, so we went down it together over and over. I didn't get to go walking or stay long because I had to work. But man o man I walked lots at work. I burned according to my calorie counter over 800 calories... yay. That's so good. I love it. This week we have a few volunteers working my shift and it's a huge help. They can't do a whole lot, but there help is better than nothing lol. They high school kids. I actually got to leave at a decent time today. It was nice. After the park we swung by and got April's Easter gift from Jason's mom. It's so cute. April loves it. April got a new book from her too. April would rather sit in her room and "read" her books.

We tried some new fries today. They are sweet potato fries and they are pretty good. They are so much more healthier than regular fries. I really enjoyed them. Jason and April both enjoyed them too. They are different though....

I think that is about it for now. We'll be going to the park most likely tomorrow. April has a blast and I enjoy being out too.

New

Today over all was a good day. This morning we kinda were lazy... I was in no hurry to do anything. So, we eventually headed out. I had to go to April's old doctor to get a copy of her shot records. They actually don't make you pay like the other one tried too. She never had shots through the other one so I said screw it and went to the older one. Stopped in at the bank to update my address once again... they didn't have the new one for some reason even though I updated it the first of the month. Oh well.

Hopefully, I can get April in Friday for an appointment for shots before day care. She has to have a flu shot before she goes into daycare. They don't require it but I want her to have one. Plus, there is another shot they may require. Most doctors don't give it unless the parent requests it, so we're going to go ahead and get it.

We stopped in and saw Jeff for a bit. It was on the way so I figured why not. It was nice to talk for a little before he had to go back to work. After we got home we went to Chris's after Jason woke up. That was fun. So muddy... poor guy tries so hard to get rid of the water in his back yard... he went through and put new drains in. That's really helping.

I can't wait until summer comes... I'm tired of all this rain and crap weather. It's gonna be nice tomorrow thank goodness. I need to get my hair cut so bad... I'm loosing so much in dead hair. It's been over 6 months since I last had it trimmed. I like long hair but I'm tired of keeping up with in the summer. I'm going to get a few inches off. Getting my hair cut is one of my rewards for loosing weight. My next reward is some new make up. Then my final one will be a new wardrobe. I will for sure need one by the time I'm done. I already need a new belt and work clothes. My poor belt is ripping.

Let's see here... the drama. It's been pretty good lately. I've been stress free for a few works. It's been nice. It's nice to focus on other things besides other people and their same problems. It's nice to breathe for once. Some people can't let it go though and have to bring it up which I think makes more drama. I'm not into this whole fake relationship thing. Been there done that, got along with others to make others happy and in the end it didn't work out and it was not worth the pain and misery. It will only end badly.

Moving on... last week we went to Jungle Jims and tried some awesome shrimp while we were there. We went and ahead and bought the seasoning. Tonight we tried it for the first time and it was awesome. It turned out really good. It had some kick to it, but so worth it. I love trying new stuff. So awesome. I'm glad Jason loves to try new food with me. I can't wait until we get our crab cakes my aunt had sent in from Maryland. I can't wait to do my pot roast... Mmm... it's gonna be good. I can't decide which one though I wanna do. I have a few different recipes. I love cooking. We got our grill too, so now we can start grilling again. Jason made an awesome steak the other night. One of the few times I will eat red meat is when it's made at home.

Easter Sunday should be fun. Hoping it's nice weather wise. We're doing my sister's birthday I believe which is actually today. She's 19. Still deciding if I wanna go to church or not. I most likely won't go because Jason won't go with me and I don't wanna take two cars. Plus I would have to get up early lol. Which lately I haven't been doing. April actually let's us sleep in.

Gotta hit the library up tomorrow. We didn't get around to going today. So we'll go tomorrow before I go to work. After we go to Batavia of course. I'm so not looking forward to it, but it shouldn't be that bad.

Oh well, that's enough rambling for now. I need to hop off here and get some stuff done real quick before I head to bed. I've been stayin up way too late the past few days. I need to get back on track of going to bed at a decent time.

Things are rolling....

Well I got the forms that I needed for April's daycare. I have to go drop them off tomorrow when I go get my paycheck. Shouldn't take them too long, but what sucks though is that an interview is required. That sucks, but oh well. If they only cover my working hours then she'll be going to a friends house most likely who charges 15 for half days which includes a meal... then she would be going to daycare when I leave for work. With the possibility of working on two farms this summer plus my regular job, it's going to get crazy. Plus softball starts April 12th. It's going to be a crazy active summer hopefully. We got April her life jacket today for the pool/boating. She looks so cute in it. I still have to get new swim suit bottoms, they are too big. The top fits great but the medium bottoms are too big.

Gotta hit the library up tomorrow. I already finished my biggo book. It was super good. I'm gonna start making a list books that I've been wanting to read. I can cross one off the list lol. I love the library. I'll take April and let her pick out a few more books. She had a blast last time. Ugh, I gotta do laundry too. The life of a mom... I love it.

Maintaining

So I checked in this morning. I've been maintaining at 135 for about a month now. It feels great. I'm still waiting to get another pair of pants. I'll be getting summer clothes soon so I don't want to waste a whole lot on clothes.... But the next pair that I buy will most likely be a size 7 depending on the brand. I am thinking though that my next pair will be capris. I can still wear them to work and be ok. I'm jst excited to be down to this size. I haven't been this small since before I met Jason... I should say pants size... I was slimmer when I met Jason but I was in a 9 when I met him and now my 9's are too big... My poor belt has had so many holes punched in it that it's literally ripping.

One thing that really sucks though is that after I got pregnant I gained in my fingers... and usually that's something that goes away with weight loss but they really haven't gotten back to where they use to be. When I got my high school ring I was in a 5. I'm now in like almost a 7 I think. I can kinda squeeze my ring on further than I could a few months ago but my knuckle area is too big.

But anyways I'm pretty happy with what's been going on and my progress. This summer I know I'm going to drop in numbers for my inches because of all the stuff we're going to be doing this summer.... working alone was my huge jump start last summer. Then of course the horse farm stuff, being at the parks for softball games, and who knows what else... I can't wait. It's going to be a fun summer.

We are getting info on a friend who does child care. If we do half days she only charges 15 and that includes a meal... a full day is 25 I think and that includes two meals. We're hoping to use her this summer. I can't pick April up in time for day care because of what time I get off so we're hoping Brit can watch her until I get off, because she is actually on my way home... so it might work. Plus with us working on the horse farm we don't claim it because she does all her tax stuff at the end of the year. So it might mess her up if we claim it for day care. Plus we get paid together instead of separate. But April is getting way way too clingy and it's driving me crazy. She needs to get out of the house but away from us for awhile too.

But that's about it for now. It's some ones nap time so I need to get off here and get some stuff done before I go to work.

Where does the time go?

This April Jasmine is going to be 5... I can't believe it. Her party is on the tenth. I'm hoping that I get the day off so I can go. If I don't, then I'll just go over earlier before I go to work. It seems like just the other day she was going to turn 4.... I'm trying to decide what I wanna get her... I think I might get her stuff she can play with outside. It's going to be getting and staying warm soon so she might like that.

I can't believe that April is going to be 2 in June. Man...time has flown by. She is growing up. She understands so much more and it seems like it happened over night. Her coordination is really good. She knows how to put her shoes on, shapes and all kinds of other things. I'm so proud of her. She knows when it is dinner time or food time I should say, she gets up in her chair all by herself. We decided not to go with a high chair or booster seat right now. She does really well sitting in a regular chair. I think she actually eats better. She's a big seafood eater like us. We love seafood, plus fish is really good for you.

I've gotten to where I really don't eat red meat. At first I wanted to cut it out because of the health problems and the pain. But now I kinda have lost the taste for it. I try not to eat it too much fast food style. But I do eat it here and there for the protein. With summer coming I need to get back in the swing of drinking water and not pop. I still don't drink as much pop as I used too, but I could always cut out more. Most likely this is going to be a busy summer. Jason may be taking a summer job at a really nice barn this summer. The pay is freaking awesome. Way more than trucking and warehouse pay. He would get paid weekly too.

Busy busy

The past few days have gone by super fast... We really haven't spent a whole lot of time at home... which is fine with me. We've spent some time at Chris's, Jason's moms, and just out and about the rest of the time. We've been making targets at Chris's house for shooting. I got the learn how to shoot the handgun and the rifle. It was so cool... the rifle was super easy to aim and shoot. It has a scope on it so it helps. The handgun though was a lot harder. It was super loud too. The rifle wasn't that loud, but my ear was ringing for a few hours afterwards. So, I need to get our ear muff things out for the next time. Chris actually bought a 22 also, I was quite surprised. You can buy them at Dicks. It's not like they are sniper rifles or anything. They are your basic back yard guns. It was so funny though Sunday I left to go see Nicole from Chris's house. When I came back they told me that some one called the cops on them. I guess the cops laughed, because there is no ordinance at all saying we can't do it. So as long as we aren't drunk and being careless we're ok. It was kinda funny because we are pretty sure we know who called and we think it's funny...

Monday I worked and went back over to Chris's house. Hung out there for awhile. Then went and got some pizza and went home. Chris came over and we watched tv for awhile and just relaxed. Tuesday I was off, and we went out for a bit. Ended back at Chris's house. Did a little shooting, and helped Chris a few things. Made more targets.. got some clay targets. Jason ended up cleaning out his truck and then we eventually went home. Had diner and got done just about in time for Michelle to come over. She brought a movie over and we talked and laughed and watched the movie. It was great to see her. She brought me my new Vera Bradley bag. She even bought April one. It's so cute. It's a smaller version of mine. She wants to go with us one day and learn how to shoot. It's cool to have friends that are interested in learning new things.

Today was kinda slow... today was a cleaning day and organizing day. Bathrooms were both cleaned, kitchen, storage closet was re-done. Then I went through a few boxes of April's clothes and tried anything on her that looked like it might fit.. packed up what didn't and it went to storage... she has a whole laundry basket of stuff that fits her that I didn't realize actually fit her. She's pretty much set for summer. She could use more shorts but I think she's good. She has two bathing suits... they are super cute. Then I had to go to work and man was I busy... more puppies.... oh well. I came home to an awesome dinner made by Jason. He's really good at fixing fish... it's so yummy. That's it for now.... Time to make some coffee and wake Jason up so he can go to work. Third shift can suck but hey it's work.

Fun days

Yesterday and today have been so much fun.... yesterday we went out for like the whole day. We went to Jason's moms house so Jason could finish the strut work on my car. Runs so smooth now. After that we went to Chris's house to hang out for awhile. Ended up making a run to Home Depot for him to help him to get more siding for his house. After that we ended up at the park to wait for Jeff to get off work. We played softball and let the kids run around. Amber was there with her kids. We had a little drama... kinda sucked. All we wanted to do was play some softball. We got new bats, and gloves and all we wanted to do was play. So after that whole ordeal, we played some more but eventually gave up because the kids were kinda getting in the way and we didn't want any one to get hurt. So we came home and relaxed for awhile, played some video games. Went to bed kinda early, since we had been out all day literally.

Today we got up and headed to Walmart. Got April some shorts and sandals. Jason got some cleats for softball. Then we headed over to the church to help set up for Jeff Sr's birthday party. I couldn't stay because I had to work. So I missed out on the pizza, white castle and kfc.... what a great combo. There were so many awesome gag gifts too. I heard it was awesome. I kinda wished that I could have been there, but work is work. After I got off work I met the boys at the softball field. Matt is in town and was out there playing too. My pitching is getting better. I really enjoy playing. Of course we're just practicing with a few people. I have a blast and I get in some running too. I'm doing really good at catching also. I have to get a glove though, because Jason's is a little too big and Jeff's is way too big. Matt didn't bring his so we only have two. But I'll get a female one, hopefully a cute one. I actually got some sunburn yesterday. Crazy. Anyways, today was so fun.

I enjoy being out with people who like to have fun...leave the drama at home. No one needs, nor wants it. Drama yesterday about ruined an awesome day... totally sucked. But we bounced back... it wasn't our drama but I felt bad for Jeff. I really did... one day he'll see.

April did awesome though yesterday and today being outside and active all day. No naps either. She really doesn't take naps... she does but she doesn't. She rests, more than sleeps. She lays in bed for awhile and then gets up and usually "reads" her books. It's usually something quiet. So she rests and refuels. Tomorrow she'll be out again most likely. We're going to Chris's after Jeff and Matt get out of church. They wanna go shooting. Jason finally got the lock off his one gun and they want to try it out. It hasn't been shot in a long time. Being out in the middle of boo foo we can do it. I'm so use to it where I work, I hear it every day almost. Then I gotta take some stuff to Nicole. It's been over three years since I have seen her.... going to be strange seeing her... hopefully this goes smoothly. Jason won't be with me so it shouldn't be too awkward for her I hope. I really do wanna see her. It's been way too long.

Let's see... Tuesday I get to see Michelle. She's coming over and hanging out. We're gonna watch a movie and chill. She is bringing me my Vera Bradley make up bag... she gets one hell of a discount... I need something to put my make up in to keep it all together because we decided to retire the storage thing it was in when we moved.

Other than that nothing else new...

April's new bookshelf and stuff

This is the bookshelf that Jason's mom's boyfriend made her. He built it, stained it and did the design with her name it. It was not originally going to be this big... but she said that he got carried away because he was really enjoying making it for her. I love it. It's all real too... I gotta find all her books to put on it... this will be around for awhile.

I finally took some new pictures of April. It's been a few months since I have taken any. Time flies by these days... especially with summer coming. Jason is going to be playing softball... i"m so excited for him. He got some stuff today for it. I got some weights that I'm excited to use.

Last night we had the boys over. Jeff brought his girls and Chris came over. I made what I think is the best batch of chicken and dumplings I've ever made... tried some new dumplings this time and they were awesome... April ran around with the girls for awhile. After Jeff left we watched a movie with Chris. My kitchen looked horrible this morning... but it was so worth it.

Lately I've been reconnecting with some old friends. It feels really good... I haven't talked to them in a while... one has a baby who is ten months, and then the other one has two girls who are a few years older... Tuesday I am hopefully going to get to see Michelle. She's going to bring a movie and popcorn over.... and my new vb bag... so excited.

Today we went to Jungle Jims... there a few things we wanna try- mostly seafood... I have become a huge fan of seafood lately. I really like it. Jason wants to try craw fish and lobster. I want to make my own crab cakes....I love crab cakes... they are so yummy. I'm so happy that Jason makes me try new food... I'm glad that he likes to explore his taste buds...

Well that's about it for now. I'm off to watch a movie and relax...

Library

Today this morning I took April out to lunch. Chris came and joined us for awhile. It was nice talking and getting out for awhile. I can't wait to see his house when he is finished with the siding. It already looks awesome. I can't wait to see the finished product. After lunch we went to the library. We got a library card for Clermont County. April had a blast picking out books and movie. Their childrens selection is huge. I really liked it. I got a book for me. I'm gonna enjoy taking her there and letting her pick out books... I did it when I was little with my grandparents and I loved it. Those are memories that I cherish and I hope I can do the same with April. I want her to like reading, I love it. At least for school I want her to like it, if she doesn't turn into a big reader that's ok but for school I want her to at least enjoy it.

Well, I have to get ready for work now. It's a pretty day outside, work is going to be great.

Feeling good

I just did my new Taebo dvd. It kicked my butt. I am so worn out. I feel good but dang I am worn out. I am doing good with the losing weight, I'm actually doing really well. Better than I thought. I'm losing the inches and the pounds, I just have to lose the skin which always sounds gross when you say it. But, the cardio will help along with some other ab stuff. And it feels good. Also with it getting warmer at work, I'll be more active. There is always lots of stuff to do when it's warm at work. My 9's are getting too big... the brand that I went with when I bought my last pair of jeans are known to be a little bit smaller so I didn't want to go to small... so I stuck with my 9's. Well.. they are to the point where I need to wear my belt which doesn't really help because my belt needs new holes punched in it... or I just get a new one. But I don't know if I'm really ready to go down another size... maybe it's out of my comfort zone... I don't know... I haven't been in a size 7 since before I got together with Jason... It's kinda scary in a way. I never plan on getting back into the size that I used to be in... I'm actually to a safe place where I can just maintain my weight and be happy. The inches though, I still plan on loosing a few more. My healthy weight range for my height is 104-140. I'm in there, which is good. My bmi is really good too. I still have some work to do, but it's a lifestyle change, not a diet. I have the power to change my eating habits, work outs, everything... It's not that easy for some people... some have to work a little harder but in the end the results are so worth it...

I look forward to summer clothes shopping. I donated all my summer clothes from past summers... all my jeans that no longer fit... all my capris, and other stuff. It was a crap load of stuff. I'm excited. I can't wait to shop. But, I am not buying any summer clothes yet.. I want to hold off as long as I can. It's almost spring but I still have some time. I don't want to waste any more money on clothes...

I'm proud of myself though for keeping up with my loss during the cold season. Just because it was cold doesn't mean you have to stop or give up. I do want to start running again but with the way my knees are feeling, I think it's going to take me longer than I thought. Plus I have to get my endurance level up which is the part that really sucks...I have always struggled with that. I'm hoping to maybe be able to swim this summer. I should say like more than twice the whole summer lol. I'm hoping we get to go out on the boat this summer.

I know April is all set for summer clothes... we have way too many clothes for this child... but she's in between size.. it sucks. I hate this transition period because nothing really fits her right. She can still wear 18 month pants... but she is starting to wear 24 month shirts... She loves her pull ups. I put pull ups on her at night because they don't leak. We have been working more and more with the potty. She's been sitting on her potty seat for months now... Since she sleeps all the way through the night and she goes to bed kinda early, night time is going to be hard for us when it comes time for potty training. But oh well...

That's it for now. I need to shower and get to bed. I was up way to late last night with April and I need to get some rest.

What you once were

You once were a friend
You once cared
we laughed
we cried
I was always there
you always came running
you always needed something
I tried and tried
but it's out of my control
the things you do
for the attention you so desperately need
can be no more
for i have no more energy
to give you what you need

you forgot others
you forgot their feelings
and how they were
you turned your back
only calling for your own gain
everyone sees it but you
I'm sure you'll see it,
when it's too late

Your definition of friendship
could use some redefining
you never fully appreciate
what everyone does for you
sometimes a simple thank you
isn't enough
especially when you don't mean it

I must stand up though
and be walked upon no more
I'm dusting myself off
and standing strong
I will not be blamed no more
for your actions

It's not that I don't care
I just didn't listen to those around me
who warned me
over and over
to get away
and not look back

I didn't listen and now I'm the fool
for your not the person I thought you were
family ties mean nothing to you
for they are everything to me

©KJG

Big helper...

This morning April was such a big help. She helped me unload the dishwasher. She took them out one at a time and handed them to me when I was ready to put them away. She loves helping... I'm also very proud of her for eating more with silverware. She has know for a while what the purpose of them are but she just never showed interest in using them with food, well the past two days she has been using them to eat with. She has been playing with her huge lego blocks too. She played with them for several hours at my grandmas house and now she's playing with her set at home. She knows how to put them together and of course take them apart. She even helps pick up her toys and put them away. My little girl is growing up lol. She puts her shoes on when we say we're going bye bye. She now weighs 24 pounds. Well I'm getting off here to go play with some legos...

Thunder

I got a call Wednesday pm that Thunder's knee went out. Thunder is a dog who lived with my while I lived with my aunt. We got him when he was a puppy, and he's now 11 years old. We thought that it was just his acl. When they opened his knee up they found out that it was not the case. He has what they believe to be canine rheumatoid arthritis. Rheumatoid arthritis is an erosive poly-arthritis, it is a noninfectious, inflammatory, immune-mediated disease.

My aunt was lucky enough to be able to "tech" in during the procedure. She said that the moment the vet opened the knee up you could see the erosion on the joint. I was able to see a picture of his knee and he damage. Most of it is nice and smooth until you get to the top of the joint and the way she described it was it looked like someone poured acid on the top of the joint. It was all jagged and rough.

They did repair his acl. He is recovering as we speak. However, they sent a biopsy off to determine if the diagnosis is correct. If it is, they are looking into stem cell injections into the joint. The procedure takes stem cells from fat samples taken from another part on the dogs body. Then they are injected into the damaged area. They easily take on the characteristics of surrounding cells and they tend to grow quickly once they get there.

This is a fairly new thing going on with dogs. They also do it with horses. I think they started the treatments in 03 but it's fairly expensive so not too many people are rushing out to do it. But it is amazing to read the case studies and see how the dogs over all health and body improved through out the treatment. I hope that it works for Thunder. It's not a fast moving disease so there is some time but they prefer to get him started right away. There is a doctor out at UCLA who has been doing this for awhile and was highly recommended for the treatment. It's exciting. I hope everything goes smoothly.

What do you do?

What do you do when the person who you thought was a really good friend turns out to only cause problems? I know that friends are the ones you turn to when you need help..advice, a smile, a laugh or just a bad day turned into good. But, what happens when it crosses the lines of friendship into way to much drama.

What happens when it blows up and all your friendship advice or help or whatever it was now gets thrown in your face? How should you react?? When your blamed for the drama of someone else's drama, their problems that really have nothing to do with you in the first place but because you have been there, and you know what it's like your the one that gets asked for the help, or the advice? What happens when you can't even think straight anymore... the problems now cross another line...into another friendship... where in the end some one has to choose.

No matter what you do, or how to handle it, some one has to choose some one... even if you don't want it to happen. I get tired of hearing about the same thing over and over again... all the advice that went ignored... we see it through clear eyes... but then when the other person finally sees it through clear eyes... I can't see crap now. My mind is all messed up.. I can't figure it out. I can't place a finger on it and say ok this is what we need to do. I need to do this. What ever I do some one will get hurt... either now or in the future.

I either keep to my word as a friend and be there and get hurt in the end because of the fakeness and selfishness on their end that is so clear and obvious to everyone around... or I cut my ties now and hurt another person who in the end will have to choose... but in my eyes in the future they might not have to "chose" because they will wake up and see what they thought they had didn't really exist. The things they do for the attention... the walking all over everyone they do... one day it will become clear to the person who needs it the most.... what the hell do I do???

Part of me says run... but then the other part of me says stay. If I stay as a friend I risk the issue of it squeezing it's way into my life with Jason where it doesn't need to be... it's already caused enough problems in our lives.... But do I really need to be blamed for it? Why must I get the guilt trip? I was the one who was doing my duty as a friend and now it's being rubbed in my face....

It's so frustrating. How do you tell some one you can't be there because you have that feeling in your gut that you need to get out... but you have the feeling in your heart that you can't because isn't that what friends are for? You should get tired of being walked all over, used, and bragged too. But...when is enough enough? You are there...you listen over and over again...advise over and over again... talking about it over and over again... when is enough enough?

We all have different views on things... is the glass half empty or full? I see myself and the others around me being walked all over and used.... and some may look at it as we're selfish and we should be there for our friends.... hm... so confused.

I'm getting to the point where the drama is invading my mind. I feel like the world is spinning out of control and I am about to explode. I get so stressed. I get to the point where I want to shut myself off from the world... mostly just the drama but sometimes the world is apart of it. I'm just so tired of it... It makes my head spin just typing this and thinking about it. I can't think about this anymore....

Back on the net again

Well.. we got our net hooked up today. We went like a week with out it and it was strange... we're not hooked or anything it was just an inconvenience not being able to check my email which I need for work. It's nice now. We're only paying 29 bucks for it. Not bad...

Today my dog (actually my aunts dog) is having his acl repaired. It went out on him the other day so my aunt drove down from Maryland yesterday to meet with the doctor today who's doing emergency surgery on him. He'll stay down here for two weeks while it heals. Then she'll drive back down to pick him up. I managed to get Saturday off so I can go up and see her.

Things are going pretty good. I'm very happy to be out and in our new place. Work is going good. It's nice with the weather being so nice... being outside. It feels great. I think that I am going to get rained on though today.

I'm excited. I'm getting April back into daycare. I want to get her back in soon so that she gets used to staying away from us during the day. When school starts I'm not going to be one of the those parents with the screaming child when they leave. She's doing pretty good sitting at the table while she eats. No high chair, no booster or anything. She knows she only eats at the table. She is using more word too. She said "excuse me" the other day to Chris. So funny.

Well, that's it for now.. I gotta get ready for work....

people and there ways

People have their ways. Some have more issues than others. I always tried to not hold things against people who can't help it. Like serious issues. I have always tired to hold my tongue. There have been so many times where i should have stood up for myself but i chose not too. The few times that i do stand up for myself i am made out to be the bad person. Well no longer will i be walked all over. There are people who push others away but can't even see it. It's so irritating. They make the excuses for why they can't do anything. Then they turn around and do things that benefit only themselves. I can't stand it anymore. I don't understand why the drama must continue. I don't understand why people like drama. Its so stupid.

yay

So i checked in today. I have lost 35 pounds. So awesome. I am so happy. I have lost all my pre prego weight plus more. I am down almost where i was in high school. Heck yeah baby.

family time

Well i got to see almost my whole family today. I went to see my mom and my sisters today and afterwards i went to my grandmas and my aunt and her kids were there. So april got to hang out with the girls for a while. Then we headed home to get jason and go meet jeff and amber. We swung in and dropped some stuff off at his moms house and talked to her for a few. We had to drop off toys for when april stays at her house. I want her to go and stay with her and continue to have a good relationship with her. When she moves she is planning on giving april her own room. That would be really cool for her. I can't wait to see her bookshelf. I really hope they bring it over so they can see it in her room. Well so far i'm keeping up with my ab workout. I'm feeling it. I've been at it for a week now. I can't wait to get our internet hooked up. Doing this with my phone sucks. We are getting the net for 25 bucks a month. Not bad. Oh well. Time to relax.

so tired

I am so tired. We went to bed way to early last night. Then we were awake at like 4 in the morning. Plus April was having bad dreams list night. She never really woke up but i went in her room a few times because she was crying. She is stayin in her bed now all night. Im so proud of her. She loves her new bed set from grandma Pam. We were up kinda early to do some cleaning. Its been a long day. Im so ready for bed.

yada

well we are unpacked. Finally. April loves her new room. It is huge. Im waiting to see the book shelf that jasons mom's boyfriend is making for her. It is going to be so cute. I have seen pictures and i can't wait. They are going to bring it over when he is done with it. I am happy they want to come over. She wants to see aprils new room and the new bed set that she bought april. It is so cute. She is moving soon and i hope she doesn't move to far away because april loves visiting her. She is worried about pepper though. She's not doing well and i don't think she's going to be around much longer. Jeff and the girls are coming over tonight. His girls are so sweet. Things are going great. I couldn't ask for anything more. Chris came over last night and hung out for a few hours. I fixed dinner and we watched movies and then played some video games. It is so nice being able to hang out with friends and laugh. So fun. I can't wait until we get our internet back. I have no problem using my phone. Oh well. nap time

funny

This is what its all about. Sitting in our new place with our friends over having fun. Cooking dinner and playing games. And of course laughing our butts off. Ive missed it so much. Our friends are like two minutes away. Love it so much. I really enjoyed getting with michelle yesterday for lunch. She is hooking me up. She is getting me a vb make up bag for half off with her discount. I need one so bad i have nothing to keep my stuff in. Its so cute. I get to see my family this weekend yay. Im going up for lunch. Been a while since we went out to lunch. Well thats it for now.

complete

Well i finally got my little girls scrapbook done. I can't believe it. I'm excited to start on her next one. I really need to get stocked up again on stickers and stuff. I need to get some more saying books. I have a lot of pictures already printed up for her second book so i am hoping to start soon. I need to the store up. I am starting to see some ones true colors. They are pretty ugly colors. They are reverting back to their old ways. I'm just about done. When you look around one day and realize your friends have left you well it's your own fault. Don't expect everything to be about you because it's not. Grow up.

goodness

well we're almost all moved in. It's going great. April is doing great. She loves her new room. It's huge. I love havin a dish washer again. I LOVE having our dining room table back. I love our new tv. We've been sleeping so good the past few nights. It's so awesome. Well that's it for now.