We finally settled with the insurance company so that's gonna put some money in my bank account. Which will be used to pay off bills and fix my credit. My other aunt is going to give me money for some new tires which I need badly. I was gonna work on my stereo system in my car but that will have to wait. Even though things are not the best, Jason and I are staying positive! We are happy and that's all that matters to us.
Today I talked with my mom for the first time in several years. She's excited that I'm pregnant. We talked about the baby and other stuff and it felt good. I used to be pretty close to her, and I think that we can re-build that relationship. One day I might have to turn to her for something and I don't want it to be because I have to, I want it to be because I can and want to. She's been trying to get me to forgive her for a long time and I'm done holding grudges. I'm willing to accept what has been and I'm ready to look at what may be. I'm not going to prevent my child from seeing her. My child didn't do anything to deserve that. It's between my mother and I. My sisters and I are working on our relationships and it's slow but it's getting better. We now talk and hug.
My family use to be so close but once my grandpa died we kinda drifted apart, but we come together when we need to. I love my family. They are the only family that I have. I'm glad that Jason is willing to participate with my family and visit with them. They talk to him like they've known him for years. I love Jason's mom. She has been nothing but kind and sweet to me. I see how much Jason cares about her and it shows in him that he was raised by a wonderful woman. That's my thought on it, and I really don't care what anyone else thinks about. It's no one else's life. It's mine and I'm happy and that's all that I care about.
Today was a good day. My grandma gave me some stuff for the house and something that was my grandpa's that he never got to finish. Hopefully Jason can work on it and finally finish. I told my grandma right after he died that I wanted it, but I didn't want it until I was ready and she gave it to me today. She gave us some cute little christmas things. She also gave us a bunch of leftovers......We have food for sure for awhile.
Anyways, that's my thoughtsy blog. I know that things are gonna get worse before they get better. I'm not stupid. I don't expect anything to be delivered to me on a silver platter. But we will work through our problems and everything will be good. So I'm gonna finish my apple pie now...
