New year brings new changes.

With the new year we all know comes new changes. We all set goals to do things or stop doing things. I have some too like everyone else does. Hoping to get back to school with in the new year. Also doing some job hunting.

Hoping to take care of some things here with in the first few months of the new year. I need too. I'm taking the steps that I need to, to make sure that it gets done. I think it'll do me some good too if I make some changes. I need some change and it'll do the whole family some good. I still want to make some changes that are more personal then anything else.

It's more about me as a person on the outside then on the inside and with personal choices. It's a new me in a way...and in a way it's the old me coming out again. I guess I have to truly let go of the past and totally and completely move forward for once in my life and get some where.

I know where I want to go here in the next few months so lets hope that if I can get there and get what I need, then I can get where I need to get after that. I need to start figuring out what all is holding me back, why and how to take care of it. I'm looking forward to getting back in the swing of motivation and self help activities.

Getting my baby back

I am so excited for tomorrow. It's been way too long that my baby girl has been visiting my mother. It has all been for good reason. But I have missed her so much and I want her home. I felt so bad Saturday when I saw her for a little bit, but she didn't come home with me and she was upset. She didn't understand. I know she most likely won't remember it, but I still felt so bad.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and weather permitting we'll be going to visit family. I hope that it's all clear in the morning because I want my little girl back. I'm also excited for the food lol. I'm glad that I will get to eat most likely anything I want tomorrow with out having too much of a problem.

I can't wait to get her back.... :)

Nervousness

Monday morning I head in for surgery. I will have my gallbladder removed. I'm nervous. Not for the actual surgery. But for the recovery. I don't look forward to the pain. But I know that it won't last long. I know that once this is done, I'll no longer have the pain.

It has been a struggle since I got pregnant. Of course my doctor assumed it be acid reflux. Now, it doesn't seem that way. I want to get through this weekend and Monday and just fast forward to Thanksgiving when I get my baby girl back. I can't pick her up for awhile so tomorrow when I meet my mom and grandma I'll see her and that's the last time that I get to pick her up for awhile. I can't wait to hold her again. Hopefully I can recover quickly and get back to normal.

Well my back is starting to really bother me. I think it's time to get dinner fixed for Jason and me head to bed

A Damper

Well the family gallbladder curse finally hit me. I have to have mine taken out. This past Wednesday I had some pain thinking that it was acid reflux which continued through to Saturday night where I eventually went to the ER. They did the tests, and I have stones. So with in the next week to two weeks I'll be having it taken out. This will hopefully take away the pain that I have been dealing with for the past two years. I'm still sore, and having slight issues eating. I have a constant pain that doesn't seem to ever go away. Usually worse after I eat. So now I'm on a liquid to low fat diet. Ugh. It sucks. I'm starving.

New Me

Well, yesterday after some difficult conservation with a few people I decided that a change is long over due. Starters, we need more activity. Family wise, and personally with me. I need to get out and do some stuff. I need to start exploring some things and find some things that are fun to do and gets me out of the house.

Also, the way that I look at things. That'll be changing. I let little things get to me that I shouldn't and then the things that should be getting to me, aren't.... So that's one thing that I need to be working on more. I have come a long way, but I still have some things to do.

Next, myself. Last night I coloured my hair. I went to a deep burgundy. I love it. Jason kinda likes. Says that it's better than the blonde because it doesn't wash out my face. I agree. I love it either way.

Next, which I haven't told Jason yet because it's a surprise in a way. I'm getting my nose pierced. Nothing dramatic. Just something small. Nothing to big, I would rather be smaller for discreetness for jobs and what not.

Then... I'm getting a tattoo. I have finally decided that I want one. I haven't told Jason either. I told him that I'll be making two changes that I can't really undo once I do them. He has no idea. I want to get something small and simple. I want to get April's initials in it somewhere. I'm thinking that I'll get it on my shoulder. That way it can be seen when I wear tank tops. I want a heart, but yet I want a dolphin. I found a really cool heart design that I like and I might be able to incorporate April's initials.

I'm so excited to get this stuff done. The nose piercing starts at 29 bucks and it's at a place that is health department certified. I'm so excited. I'm so excited.