This weekend was a blast

This weekend was pretty fun. Friday I didn't do much except work and spend time with April. Saturday, Amber and Madison came over and we headed to Steak and Shake for lunch. We got a pretty good deal because the kids meals were free. So, after lunch we headed off to the new Volvo store to bug Jeff. It's pretty nice. Any place that has tvs in the bathrooms...is just crazy. But we hung out there for a bit. Madison kept taking mass pictures with Amber's phone...pictures of random people and random cars lol. Some of them were actually pretty good lol. After that we hit up the mall and made our way to the jewelery stores... found some nice ones lol. I was able to get fitted. It'll be a while before we get it of course but it's nice to have some ideas of what we want. After that we walked around and did a little shopping until Jeff and his girls got there. Then we let the kids play in the little play area for awhile. After that we headed out and hit up Once Upon A Child and got some stuff and hit some other stores for Jeff. We ended up getting pizza and headed back to Jeff's to let the girls watch a movie. We had a good day. The girls were kinda whiney but oh well. We still had fun.

Today April and I drove up and met Jason in Franklin and went out to lunch and spent the day together. We went to Ceaser's Creek Park and walked around. Ended up in Walmart getting a few things before he had to go back.

Over all it was a good weekend. It's always nice to get out and do stuff with friends. Of course next weekend will be fun too... camping and taking the atvs out... I can't wait... this week will be busy but it's going to go fast.. Tuesday is an all day event, I work the rest of the week except Saturday which is the day we're heading out... to be back Sunday so I can go to work in the afternoon. I gotta dig all our camping stuff out... I can't wait.. it'll be fun..

Had a great weekend

This weekend was so much fun. We were able to get out and have some fun. Friday evening I worked, and Jason came home. After I got work and he got the ATV loaded up he met me and we had dinner. Great little place, first time being there for me and I loved it. Saturday the boys headed out with the truck while I waited for Amber to drop her son off and come to the house. We packed everything up and headed out. After our many stops because we kept forgetting stuff...we finally made it out. It rained for a little bit but over all it was great. It was wet and muddy but that made it super fun. April had a blast playing with Abbi. She was great with April and helped out a lot. We had a grill out thanks to Mandi. The boys made an awesome trail. Through creeks and up and down hills and through the woods. It was fun. We had a nice fire and we made smores. Slept in a nice huge tent and listened to the rain. Sunday was perfect weather. It was hot though. We had fun. Amber was able to ride for the first time. It was fun watching her try to steer... and then she ran off the trail into some little bushes... so funny. Good times. It was nice though because they were finally used for what they were made for... there were some times on the trail that I though we were gonna get stuck... But we didn't. The boys know what they're doing. Amber and I weren't allowed on the big trail.. If you didn't know what you were doing there were plenty of areas where you could roll for sure. So we just stuck the fields and the areas by the pond.. It was a blast racing with Amber. The only thing that really sucked was that I had to work Sunday afternoon. I was so busy too, but I got some extra time in. After work we met Jeff and Amber at DQ so I could eat and plus we had to drop stuff off for Jeff and I had to get the car charger from Amber. Jason went back today and I had lots of cleaning and unpacking and putting away of stuff. I was able to get the grass cut too. Now it's time to relax. The next time that we go out, I'll be taking more pictures that is for sure. Next time we're hoping that we can leave April with her grandma or something. It's so time to sleep now... didn't get much this weekend lol.

WL Entry 3

It's been a month since I first measured. I've been on this new plan since June. I'm happy to say that I've lost 6 pounds. I've also lost some inches. I've lost a good two inches off my tummy, and also two inches off my legs. I've lost elsewhere but those two are the main ones. I'm very excited. I tried on a pair of jeans that I bought a while back and they didn't fit the way that I wanted them too, but when I tried them on the other day they fit better. I could actually wear them and not mind wearing them. I want them to fit a little bit better though... My rear end is smaller. I never really measured there until today so I'll start keeping track of that. I feel good. I feel like I have more energy. I look forward to tomorrow.... it's going to be so exciting... I'm going to get measured and try on some gowns thanks to Amber.... and then compare after I've lost more weight/inches. We're going to hit up the jewelery store and get measured and look for a back up ring in case we can't the one that we want. I uploaded a picture of it... I can't wait.... it's going to be a full day...plus we're going to the zoo... Long day but I can't wait..

Weekend was a blast..........

This weekend was a blast. Jason came in on Friday. Jeff, Jason and I went down to the river and hung out for a while. Of course Amber should have been there but she couldn't make it. Saturday we helped Amber out. I should say the boys did. Her and I kinda just hung out. But, thanks to Amber we have a new bed. It's in great shape, and it's never really been used.. It's so comfortable... It's nice to have a framed bed lol. It's nice to have a queen size bed too lol. I love it. I had to be at work at 3:30 so I couldn't go to Indiana with them, but the boys helped her finish moving and then we all met back at the house once I was off work. Then we headed over to Chris's house and enjoyed a great night of corn hole and burning stuff. Amber and I got a little buzzed because it's been a while since we both drank so we took it easy. A few other of Chris's friends came over and we all laughed and made fun of Chris for getting his grass burned. Amber and I ate pizza that Chris made... but we left some lol. Then of course other people ate the rest lol. But it was a blast. We laughed and had a great time. Sunday the boys took the atv out to Jeff's sister's house. I had to work Sunday, so I didn't go. He headed out today. He may have caught a break though, a company who is local wants him to come in and fill out their application. It's local and he would home. Pay is over 16 dollars an hour. But he would be working the evening shift. Not sure about weekends. But we're taking it one step at a time and not moving fast. I finally started working and we're getting money in and it's nice to be able to go out and do things. But we also have other things that we need to take care of. This is the way to do it. But over all this weekend was good. Tomorrow I'm excited at the thought of hopefully seeing Michelle after my meeting at UC. Hoping to maybe take April swimming. Not sure yet. But that's that.

I'm ready for love

Take my hand and lead the way;
tell me all you want to say.
Whisper softly in my ear,
all those things I want to hear.
Kiss my lips and touch my skin;
bring out passions deep within.
Pull me close and hold me near;
take away my pain and fear.
In the darkness of the night,
be my beacon, shine your light.
In the brightness of the sun,
show me that you are the one.
Give me wings so I can fly;
for I can soar when you're nearby.
Enter my heart, break down the wall,
it's time for me to watch it fall.
I've been a prisoner, can't you see?
Break my chains and set me free.
Strip me of my armor tight;
you'll find I won't put up a fight.
Release my soul held deep within . . .
I'm ready now, let love begin.

It's going to be a good day

I can just feel that it's going to be a good day. I don't know why... I just feel it. I measured myself and I've lost another half an inch off my legs. From all the walking that I've been doing I'm not surprised... I just like seeing it. So see... any one can do it... Just gotta keep up with it and it'll happen before you know it. We didn't get to go walking this morning. I was too lazy. April was lazy too, not really waking up until after ten. She was up and then back to sleep. But yeah... it's ok I will get my walking in today at work. Then tomorrow we can go the park and walk. See, this is the only way that I'll keep up with it, is talking about it. I have to motivate myself sometimes lol. I did feel good when I tried on a shirt that my grandma gave me and it fit well. I was like heck yeah... But yeah... It's gonna be a good day...

I love my life.

I love my life. This is why I love my life..... I have an amazing boyfriend who puts up with a lot. He's patient and is willing to work things through to the end. He listens. He helps, and he tries. He praises me when needed, and he cares. He knows me better than I thought. He supports me no matter what. I achieve something I have worked for, he is there and says god job. He works hard to help support me and his daughter. Because of him, I have an amazing daughter. She's bright. When I walk in the door she smiles and comes to me. She smiles all the time. She gives hugs and she gives kisses. I have an amazing family, both mine and Jason's. I have a great job that's fun. No one tells me what to do... I do things my own way. I love it. I have people around me who encourage to do better and not hold me back. I couldn't ask for things to be any better right now. I have great friends. Ones who help and don't complain, but only want to see things get better for those around them. I am so lucky to have friends like the ones I have. I feel like I can do anything right now. I feel great.

Apri's Doctor Visit.

Well, we made it to the doctor finally. April was only due for one shot until she's 15 months. That was kinda cool. She's 20 pounds and 4 ounces. She's 30 inches long. The doctor looked at her from top to bottom and said "She's one of best looking babies I've ever seen" Everything looks great including her legs. The dotor said that if she keeps maintaing everything the way it is, she's going to be tall and thin. So she got one shot in her arm, and she cried for about three minutes. That was it. She got her iron checked. A tiny little prick on her big toe and she actually laughed when the nurse pricked her. I love this place, the doctor really took the time to examine her. Not just a two second glance but a true look. Everything looks good though. She goes back in another 2-3 months for her check up.

First day of work

I loved it... It's so me. I so can do this... I love not being managed by anyone.. I love not dealing with public.. no phones, no complaints, no nothing...I love it.. I love being around the animals. The dogs are so sweet and the kitties are cute. Plus, it's awesome to be able to work for a rescue agency... it's a great feeling. It's constant work... I logged my walking for the day and I burned a good 600 and some calories. I ate before I left for work, and by the end of my shift I was hungry... that would explain why lol. It's good. Lots of walking is what I need right now. I'm doing good. I haven't been able to walk since Friday with Amber though. I am planning on going tomorrow before April's doctor's appointment. I don't know if that will happen though. I need to cut the grass. I will get walking in one way or another. I did bad with my calories this weekend... but it was a holiday weekend... I didn't go over too much though. But I can't wait until I get my first paycheck.. It's been so long... I am so happy though, I fit in to my scrubs and they are mediums... . Speaking of, I need to get more... well that's about it... I can't wait till I work again...

In the blink of an eye

Things change. People grow. No matter how hard we try, things change. It's out of our control. There is nothing that we can do. Some of us have things that follow us through our lives. Always there, always begging to stir trouble up. In the blink of an eye a world can be turned up side down. Emotions can run high, until they run out of that fuel that keeps them going. There comes a breaking point. The point in which we can not continue. The question is, do we want to? Do we want to repeat the same things over and over again? Do we want to put ourselves in that position over and over again where the tears fall and the anger rises? Are we really hurting ourselves then? In the blink of an eye the world can change. Things are said that can't be taken back. We grow into our own selves. We become who we are. I believe the way we are raised plays only a small key in it. Children see how we act as adults. They hear what we say and soak it in. Our children look to us as role models. If a child goes bad, does that mean it's the parents fault? There are so many questions. So many answers but not to the right questions. We say things and people are free to take them however they want. It's hard. But things are changing. Relationships are changing and that's fine with me. I'm tired of the circle. I'm getting out now, and I'm staying out. I've been in it way to long. I'm breaking free and hoping that I never go back... From this day forward I put my daughter and my family first. I have a wonderful boyfriend and an amazing daughter. They come first. They are my family. I know that I have other family and some support me in what I do and some don't. I'm not here to make others happy, if me being with some one makes that person happy then great, but I'm here to make me happy and take care of my daughter. I'm here to grow old with the love of my life while having fun.

April 13 Months

It's hard to believe that my little girl is 13 months already. Seemed like she just turned one. She's walking so much more now... She loves it. She wants to do it by herself too, she doesn't want help. She had chili today and loved it. She's eating more table food finally. She's got two molars in so I think the pain has mostly gone away for awhile. The other day she walked over to her high chair to let us know that she was hungry. Today she said hi. She's trying to talk more and more. She is saying dada more and more along with mama. I think she said something like nana the other day but I don't know. She climbs on everything... She loves her books. She'll sit and go through all her books... turning the pages and looking at the pictures. She is very gentle with them. She enjoys her walks with mommy because she knows that she gets to play and see all the dogs that are out walking. Not too much to update on. I'll have more though after this week, because she has a doctors appointment Tuesday...