April's first beach adventure

So today we ended up at the beach. After it poured for like 5 minutes we were able to get to the water. We let April play in the sand for awhile and then she went into the water. It wasn't really cold. She seemed to really like it. She was soaked. I wish that I had taken my camera but I didn't. We were all soaked by the time we came out of the water. I can't wait until it gets warmer.... I look forward to going out this summer on the boat at least once if Chris ever takes a day off from his house lol. April will hopefully be getting her new pool next weekend. Exciting.. well I'm tired and ready for bed...

Your Touch

your touch is always with me
it's burnt into my skin
as soft and warm as sun rays
when a summer day sets in

your soft voice never silent
it's forever in my ears
serenading every moment
and calming my fears

your arms always enfold me
the strength of angels wings
they support and protect me
with the safetly a true love brings

while I can never repay you
for the wonder you bring into my life
I can forever be true
and forever be a true lover

KG 3-19-07

Free Wind

I feel as if I could fly
spread my wings far out
take a chance
just go for it
close my eyes
and feel the wind
let it take me
and guide me to the clouds
let me float
for in the clouds I am free
leave the evil below
feel the wind in my face
feels so nice
I feel so free
I never want to land

KG 2-2-2006

My Darkness

I feel cold
I feel alone
I feel cut off
The part I once knew is no more

The part of me I want you to know
is no where to be found
Where did she go? Why do you say no?

You think you know me
But you don't
You don't see what your missing
read my words and find her
Bring her back to me

Tell her that it's ok
It's ok to be affraid
You'll protect her
Make her see

I want you to know me
I want you to believe in me
I want you to believe in us

I want you to find my darkness and release her
I beg of you
Bring her back to me
So we can be us once again.

KG- 12-29-08

I am someone

I walked past a dead face
even though the person was alive
I saw my eyes in the mirror
and cried at the sight

I looked at a person I didn't know
and I met a friend
I got heads to turn
when I walked past
I learned alot about myself
When I lost a friend

I cried every tear in my body
When I thought about my love
I got hit bad
then I got back in the ring
I climbed a mountain of rocks
and saw an eagle fly over head

I heard terrible things about myself
When no thought I was listening
I realized that I was strong
When I didn't cry when I got hurt
I found out who I was
When I was with some one else

I thought I was lost forever
When a friend found me
I held a life in my hand
and it's my own

I was a pawn in some one else's game
So I surrounded to a crook
I walked the find line between
surviving and not wanting to survive

I still am
I still am some one
And will always be some one.

KG 7-24-2006

Hope is a dream in the mind of what can come

Hope is a dream in the mind of what can come, hope can surpass everything. If there is no hope, then we have nothing. Hope makes us close our eyes and dream of the wonders of the world. Hope makes our impossible dreams come true. We never know what life is going to bring us. All we can do is take what we have and make the best of it the way that we know how. We have to look inside ourselves and find the inner strength to carry on. We have to be strong for ourselves and our mind before we can be there for anyone else. How can we give ourselves to others when we can't give ourselves our full body and mind. How dare we try to give ourselves to someone else when we aren't ready. Doesn't that set us up for hurt. Should we be afraid to love if we've been hurt in the past? Or should we embrace the lessons learned and take that first step to a new life? If we are afraid to be hurt, what stops us from building the walls that stop the hurt? I am a firm believer in the idea that we can't do anything for anyone else with out first taking care of ourselves. I also know that hope can be cruel and play tricks on us. It's all apart of life. It can fade and disappear for what seems like forever. Just when we're down and we can't see the light something happens and we are reunited with the faint flame of hope. The question that I ask however, did the hope really disappear or was it there all along? Do we really know, will we ever know? Are we even meant to know? We sit here and we judge each other but who gives us the right to judge? The only one who can judge me is Him above. No other judgment matters. We need to walk around with our heads held high and hope in our eyes. We need to grasp it with a tight grip and let it know that we won't let go...